El dolor crónico que me hace vulnerable

Tras una fractura de columna tuve una cirugía con trasplantes transpediculares que ayudaron por un tiempo. Son las 2:22am y tras una dosis doble de medicina que tomo en caso de emergencia, al fin el dolor es lo suficientemente tolerable como para intentar dormir. Éste problema me dejó en una situación muy complicada económicamente, estoy en otro país, sin trabajo, etc. Con en tiempo uno aprende a poner buena cara ante lo que sucede, pero siento que soy como un río a punto de desbordar. Quizá escondo una depresión tras un optimismo que a ratos provoca risa. Me gustaría hablar con alguien de esto, alguien que entienda que en momentos de gran dolor, lo que se necesita es sentirse acompañado, quizá que te ayuden a considerar otros puntos de vista, u oportunidades que, ofuscado por el mismo dolor, parecerían no existir.

Me siento como un caballo de esos a los que se les impide ver a los lados. En un túnel oscuro, sólo. Estoy atascado en este sentimiento que me desborda.

Tengo vergüenza de reconocer este sentimiento de extravío, pero en este libro, es lo que es y no se qué hacer con esto.

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  • Hi Lizandro3

    I hope you don't mind but as this site usually uses English, and I'm afraid I don't know Spanish, I have taken the liberty of using Google to translate your post for other forum users. I hope you don't mind. And I apologise if the translation is not very accurate.

    Espero que no te importe , pero como este sitio por lo general utiliza Inglés , y me temo que no sé español , me he tomado la libertad de usar Google para traducir su poste para otros usuarios del foro . Espero que no te moleste. Y me disculpo si la traducción no es muy precisa.

    Chronic pain that makes me vulnerable

    After a spinal fracture surgery Transpedicular had a transplant that helped for a while. It's 2:22 am and after a double dose of medicine to take in case of emergency, at last the pain is tolerable enough to try to sleep. This problem left me in a very difficult economic situation, I am in another country, without work, etc. With time you learn to put a good face on what happens, but I feel I'm like a river about to overflow. Maybe I hide a depression after an optimism that sometimes provokes laughter. I would like to talk to someone about it, someone who understands that in times of great pain, what is needed is to feel accompanied, perhaps they can help you consider other points of view, or opportunities, obfuscated by the same pain, would not seem to exist .

    I feel like a horse of those to which they are prevented from seeing the sides. In a dark tunnel, only. I'm stuck in this feeling overwhelms me.

    I'm ashamed to admit this feeling of loss, but in this book, is what it is and not what to do with this.

  • Lizandro3

    In answer to your post, I can only say I am sorry to hear that you are in so much pain at the minute. But you are in the right place. All of us here experience pain of some sort and that is why we use a forum like this to connect with people who are in similar situations.

    Although I don't personal have pain for the same reasons as you, I do suffer 24/7 pain because of my own conditions. And yes like you I have had to give up working and as such I am now in a very difficult financial situation. It's not easy is it. It's hard enough trying to deal with the pain but having to cope with the extra problems it brings, only makes the pain worse if we don't manage to find a way of coping or dealing with it.

    Are you able to speak to a doctor about your issues. Perhaps they could recommend a counsellor of some sort, someone in the medical profession for you to talk to about your issues, to try and help you cope with them.

    Here in the UK we have pain management clinics. Unfortunately all they offer is usually cognitive behavioural therapy but that can help some people to come to terms with their pain, or help them to cope with the other issues that it brings along with it.

    Failing that, if you have specific issues you want to talk to someone about, I'm sure there will be some one here who can offer some sort of support.

    Gentle healing hugs, Margaret.xxx

    En respuesta a su mensaje, sólo puedo decir que me siento al saber que usted está en tanto dolor en el minuto. Pero usted está en el lugar correcto. Todos los aquí la experiencia del dolor de algún tipo y es por eso que utilizamos un foro como este para conectar con las personas que están en situaciones similares.

    Aunque no tengo el dolor personal por las mismas razones que usted, yo no sufrir dolor 24/7 a causa de mis propias condiciones. Y sí como que he tenido que dejar de trabajar y, como tal, ahora estoy en una situación financiera muy difícil. No es tan fácil es. Ya es bastante difícil tratar de lidiar con el dolor, pero tener que hacer frente a los problemas adicionales que trae, sólo hace que el dolor empeore si no logramos encontrar una manera de hacer frente o tratar con ella.

    ¿Es capaz de hablar con un médico acerca de sus problemas. Tal vez se podría recomendar un consejero de algún tipo, alguien en la profesión médica para que usted pueda hablar de sus problemas, para tratar de ayudar a lidiar con ellos.

    Aquí en el Reino Unido tenemos clínicas de tratamiento del dolor. Por desgracia, todo lo que ofrecen es la terapia cognitivo conductual normalmente pero que puede ayudar a algunas personas a llegar a un acuerdo con su dolor, o ayudarles a hacer frente a las otras cuestiones que trae consigo.

    De no ser así, si usted tiene problemas específicos que desea hablar con alguien sobre, estoy seguro de que habrá alguien aquí que pueda ofrecer algún tipo de apoyo.

    abrazos curativas suaves, Margaret.xxx

  • Many thanks Margaret for your words and time.

    I will try to find professional help. Cognitive therapy was good with me. But, when the pain returns at this level, I return to zero to.

    I realize I am feeling guilty by to feel pain. People around me makes me feel in this way, like if I had chosen the pain as my way of live. I know it is not their intention.

    7am, my day begins feeling me like a popular and sad song, I know the letter. My problem, I realize this now to, I am scared to have a long and painfull day.

    I need to change my attitude right now.

    Hugs,

    L

  • (Ukmsmi4, I really appreciate your suggestion)

    This chronic pain makes me vulnerable

    After a spinal fracture, the doctors have had to use fixation implants that was help me for a while. It's 2:22 am and after a double dose of emergency medicine, the pain is enough tolerable to try to sleep. This problem puts me in a very difficult economic situation, I am in another country, without work, etcetera. The time teached me how to put a good face at any time, but I feel like a river overflowing. In this moment I think I am hidding a depression behind my public optimism, in a ridiculous way. I would like to talk to someone about it, someone who understands that, in times of great pain, what is needed is to feel accompanied, perhaps who help me to consider other points of view, or to find realistic opportunities. Obfuscated by the pain, would not seem to exist chances to have a life.

    I feel like a horse prevented from seeing the sides. In a dark tunnel, lonely. I'm stuck in this feeling overwhelms me.

    I'm ashamed to admit my feeling of loss, but in this book, is what it is, and I dont know what to do with this.

  • Dear Liz,

    Sorry but MY Spanish is NOT too good either. I gather, from what I can translate, that you are having/have had trouble with a Transplant. I don't know weather it is very recent, recently or some time ago. I had a Kidney Transplant, about three years ago, so I Might be able to help-but only in English, I'm afraid.

    I it is possible, please can you re-write this 'post', in English?

    I know that we would all be happy to offer you whatever support we can.

    AndrewT

  • Of course Andrew, and thanks.

    This chronic pain that makes me vulnerable

    After a spinal fracture, the doctors have had to use fixation implants that was help me for a while. It's 2:22 am and after a double dose of emergency medicine, the pain is enough tolerable to try to sleep. This problem puts me in a very difficult economic situation, I am in another country, without work, etcetera. The time teached me how to put a good face at any time, but I feel like a river overflowing. In this moment I think I am hidding a depression behind my public optimism, in a ridiculous way. I would like to talk to someone about it, someone who understands that, in times of great pain, what is needed is to feel accompanied, perhaps who help me to consider other points of view, or to find realistic opportunities. Obfuscated by the pain, would not seem to exist chances to have a life.

    I feel like a horse prevented from seeing the sides. In a dark tunnel, lonely. I'm stuck in this feeling overwhelms me.

    I'm ashamed to admit my feeling of loss, but in this book, is what it is, and I dont know what to do with this.

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