My oncologist has discussed my case with her colleagues at the Churchill Hospital in Oxford, (first line and op done privately), they think that I will be suitable for a trial they are running and I have to have another CT scan on Mondayand then first meeting with new onc the following Monday when I will find out the detail of the trial. In the meantime having been feeling really well, over the past week I have had constant consipation and tummy pains all this started with an episode of sickness, so am really starting to worry and panic about whats going on inside. I know its not long to wait but still feeling really down (am usually really positive and upbeat), even my new puppy can't take away my feeling of dread at the moment.:-(. Other posts recently have given me a reality check and as my diagnosis was Stage 4 high grade and aggresive I am now wondering how long it will be before things get really bad. Could do with hearing from anyone with similar stage and grade and how they are getting on.
sorry this is a bit of a ramble, but just needed an outlet for my thoughts at the moment, had a really good blub the other day, but don't want to bring those around me down as well.