Good evening everyone... I hope you are all as well as you can be? I feel almost a fraud posting this because so many are facing recurrence just now.
Tomorrow the first part of the journey completes for me...my last cycle of Avastin. I am well...ca125 alright scan clear but I find it's bringing up some odd feelings. I've had about 20 months of treatment having been dx stage 4 in July 2015. Chemo-surgery-chemo, then Avastin and BRCA 1 positive. I feel like I've been living at sea in a small boat 🚣.
I wasn't ready to end treatment this time last year when my carbo/taxol finished but now I am really ready...can't wait!
At the same time that old fear in the stomach starts up...recurrence..will it? Won't it? When might it?
I feel that I've met the knowledge that I will die one day head on...that's very scary but also a real opportunity to make time precious.
I think it's one of the reasons that we all understand each other...a tee shirt we might not have wanted to get but here we are and we are the wise women!
Much love to all ❤❤❤❤❤