Anyone ever develop fear of becoming depressed and suicidal i posted yesterday about how Ocd Trows thoughts images and scenerios not of me acting on suicide but like i can see my loved ones suffering from ny death like i deep down in my heart never want to i dont want to even think about it but ocd tortures me with the thoughts and images .. Earlier i was enjoying coffee with my husband alone and he was telling me how much he loves me and a random thought and image of him crying because i died on my thought / head came across so i said okay ocd im gonna die anything else you will like to trow at me? ... man its too much sometimes😪
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These are just intrusive thoughts from OCD. I'm sure that's something you know already, but it doesn't make it any less upsetting. And thoughts like this have a way of trying to spoil all the nice things in your life, such as your supportive husband and your boys.
I know that you don't want to take medication, but it might be worth giving it a go at least for a few months. It can take a few weeks to start working, but it can make all the difference.
But if that's something you don't want to do, at least know that there are things you can do to improve your mood. I've got a couple, Overcoming Depression by Paul Gilbert and Mind over Mood by Dennis Greenberger and Christine A Padesky, and they have helped me, but there are plenty of others.
It's all too easy to 'overthink', where one thought leads to another, and that leads to something else, and before you know it you don't know where your head is at.
Remember it's just OCD. It tries to attack you just where it matters most to you, in your case your family. But having a supportive and loving family will help you learn to defeat it.
Hang in there! I'm happy you have a husband who cares. I feel like I deal with the OCD all by myself with my 11 yr old.
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