Well, after your kind support, I took the plunge and went to see my GP to be referred back to Rheumatology last week. She was really lovely and very concerned, also changed me on to Lansoprazole which seems to have helped improve my stomach after a couple of days of worsening discomfort (I look forward to the day they develop drugs that don't make you feel worse before hey make you feel better!) Spent the last week feeling much more positive as I've started taking control again but now got through an appointment at Rheumy for next week (v surprised at speed!!!) and now back to panic at the thought of what drugs they might put me on and side-effects and lifestyle limitations they might need. Makes me sound like a right old soak, doesn't it? I don't drink more than the recommended weekly amounts, often less, but do find having a glass of wine while supper cooks a comfort and a nod towards a normal life. A big part of me wants to cancel the appointment and pretend the RA isn't there but I know that isn't an option and I'd only be delaying the inevitable. Also worried as I try desperately to not look or act as if I'm ill so am sometimes my worst enemy when it comes to explaining my symptoms and the limitations they impose on my life. Found out this morning that I've got a sinus infection so hoping that is under control by Wednesday so I can be alert for the appointment. Ending on a high note, I have a course on Maternity Reflexology this weekend and am very excited as it's an area I'd love to specialise in if I can get the full use of my hands back - just hope the brain fog lifts long enough for me to take it all in.