Don't know whats the matter with me at the moment but for the last few weeks I have been feeling really low. I am fed up with all the RA thing and what goes with it. Blood tests, injections, pills I feel like my whole life revolves around this and all I think about are Fridays when I have my injection. Feel lousy for most of the Friday every week, and i take all meds to help with side effects.
Going away upto Scotland for the weekend on Friday and I know by Friday afternoon after my jab, I will be feeling crap.. What's the point of going?. I have also put on 1 and halft stone and can't seem to shift it either. I was diagnosed last July so you would think I would have accepted it by now and some of the time I have but it is always lurking in the background and you have to think about what you do all the time incase you have a flare or do too much. I can't stop thinking that is this what I have to look forward to for the rest of my life. Drugs and injections,! its pants!!!! I know some of you are probably much worse than me as at the moment as I am not really suffering with pain due to the MTX so I am sorry if i sound like a baby.
I cannot motivate myself at all and only for this blog there is no one I can really let off steam to. My other half is great but not so great when i am sounding off, he does not know what to say to me. Anyway, I better shut up or i will have everyone else on here feeling the same as me.