So fed up right now.... had a rubbish appointment at the usually great GP's today,even writing down a list of the questions I needed answers to as I keep forgetting,or getting fobbed off by the rheumatologist consultant,but the GP was so far behind(very unlike him) that the pre booked appointment was rushed and I'm still none the wiser as to any answers from my list of questions,or latest blood results! If I can muster the strength tomorrow then I'll try and get hold of the rheumy nurse,as something needs to be done,and soon before I get even lower on my downward spiral.
I also need to chase the insurance up from when someone very kindly rear ended my 4month old car while we were sat stationary on the a12 - it's the medical report that's held it up this long,although after reading my copy last week,it's almost like it's written for someone completely different!! This happened on the 1st of October last year,so to me this has dragged on for far too long.... as it is I'm already out of pocket almost £500 on Physio alone,as you can imagine the force needed to hit an xc60 so hard that it moves an 80kg Powerchair that's locked into place in the boot,and that force has smacked straight into my back(already had 3 ops on for fusion/ decompression) plus it's obviously had a huge impact on my body flaring just as my meds were beginning to finally work after being on this little lot since Jan..., so all in,last year I think I had about 2 1/2 weeks of being almost normal before this happened... joys!! I know it should be an open and shut case,with the other driver admitting liability(pretty hard for him not to when I was stationary and he ended up wedged under the back of my car😝) But I just can't understand how a Motability insurance solicitors can be that bad that they haven't even acknowledged the email I sent last week listing all of the faults with the report,and also how I expect to see the so called Dr on rogue traders anytime soon!! I can seriously see me losing it with them over the phone too (of course,a premium rate number that you have to ring them on.... luckily I have a freephone number I use and just keep hassling whoever answers til they pick up and put me through - why should I keep being out of pocket?!) As it is,I'm now back on anti depressants because just as I think I'm getting better then a lovely little flare raises its head and reminds me I'm no longer in charge of my body - I went out for two hours with mum this morning just to get out of the house,and boy am I paying the price for it now😩🤒🤕 I've been falling asleep at the drop of a hat all week during the day,and then wide awake again,and uncomfortable during the night.... the only good things are that the cats are slowly coming around to the pup,so if you can bear the noise(and she is very quiet for a small dog,I made sure of that when we first got her)then it's great fun to finally watch the girls all run around like fruitcakes(yay,it's not just me in the house 😂) the cats are jumping in and out of hiding places and patting the dog just hard enough to make her bark or jump,and then it's just like watching the whole room getting torn to shreds again,.... it's fun,but I do feel really guilty that I've now got a dog and pretty much just after I got her I've been ill since - I know she doesn't care as she can't stand the cold anyway,but it still makes you feel even more down,and so the circle carries on!!
Sorry for my rant,just needed to let off some steam,and to people who hopefully understand without me having to explain to them why I constantly feel so crap,and that I can't just put on my shoes and snap out of it - I don't get that said often,but when it is,it's usually with the other person beating a retreat pretty sharpish at the same time!!
Thanks for listening,and here's to you guys having a better time than me at the minute x