My name is Jay and I am a 35 year old male from the UK. I was diagnosed with RA in November and have been taking sulfasalazine since then, which initially made me feel really drowsy, tired and not a lot better, but then went on to make me feel much better. I had a swollen little finger on my right hand and another finger on my left hand which had been painful on and off since I was 17. This was often misdiagnosed with various things, so it was a relief in some ways when eventually it was diagnosed as RA. I had chest, hands and feet X-Rays and the affected fingers showed that my joints/bone in the affected fingers had diminished a little.
More recently for some reason, I seem to be very snappy and not a lot of fun to be around. I have a lovely wife and 2 children (Daughter 3 and Son 6 Months). I find myself having to try very hard to appear alert and happy, although inside I feel tired, unenergetic, lethargic and generally unhappy. Very small and minor issues make me snap - something I am usually able to keep on top of. I have started reading into it and am concerned I have some form of depression.
I am not especially happy about taking sulfasalazine forever, although I have accepted that. There is no way I am taking more medication. I wanted to ask if this is common, or if anyone else feels like this. It's so frustrating that nothing seems to be making me genuinely happy and I feel like I am acting all the time. People at work have also noticed this change in my behavior.
If there is any advice anyone can give me, I would really appreciate it. I don't really want to go to the doctors, as I don't want a record of this. I don't really want to admit it to anyone hence joining here today. I have nothing in my life or any worry's that should result in me feeling like this and I don't understand it.