Last year I was officially diagnosed with RA. Five years prior my blood work showed indicators that it was a possibility but I was not in any real pain and was in denial. After I moved to a new state and stopped working full time my feet, fingers, wrist and shoulders were unbearable and I found a new rheumatologist who started me on steroids and methotrexate. The steroids were a wonder drug and I stopped hurting right away. The methotrexate however made me sick and my doctor really pushed humira and so I started that 10 weeks ago. I have been tapering off 20 mg of steroids and just got down to 5mg. I am gaining weight, my heart races and they make me angry so I need off of them but my pain is not fully controlled. Everyday I wake up, after a poor nights sleep, never knowing what is going to hurt that day. I am depressed and feel so alone. I have a great husband of 36 years but he doesn't have a clue what I am going through. I think most of my family just thinks I'm depressed from moving and selling my business but that is not it. I'm depressed because I don't feel good anymore. I was a very active person before and now I don't have the energy to do anything. My brain feels like it is in slow motion. My thoughts are fuzzy and I don't like the person I have become. I keep looking into diet options that claim to help but I'm having a hard time sticking with one. I know I am so much more fortunate than so many people suffering out there but I don't know how to pick myself up. I am on antidepressants and can't say they are helping that much. What do I do? I don't know what else to try? Thank you for listening.