I need a moment to vent that isn't on my friends and family. I've been trying for a baby for almost a year. My rheumy told me I needed to stop enbrel before trying. I did and fell pregnant the first month but sadly miscarried back in December. In that time I've had lots of flares and had to have a knee synovectomy which meant stopping trying for a few months. I'm now back on enbrel after having another conversation with my rheumy who said I could go back on it whilst trying. I'm totally stressed out thinking that I basically need not have come off enbrel for all this time. He knew about my flares but never advised me to go back on it. I have been so determined to get pregnant that I've just grinned and bared it when I've flared. I'm now not sleeping and feel so distraught that I've put my body through hell when I probably didn't need to. I know that legislation says they don't know the effects of enbrel and pregnancy which is why I was advised to come off it. I just feel so guilty for not doing more research and getting back on the enbrel straight away. My head is all over the place. Sorry, rant over.