Here's a bit of background:
I started smoking when I was 40 (yes, that was my first cigarette!). I was going through a rough patch, and jokingly took a cigarette from a friend. I had no idea how to smoke, and somehow coughed and spluttered my way through it. And then I had another one. And a bit later, another one.
Within a few weeks I was a smoker. Albeit only a maximum of 10 a day. I was (and still am) under the illusion that the smoking was de-stressing me. Somehow it was making my life better, more enjoyable, less stressful Yes, now I know that it's all about the nicotine addiction (and the habit).
So let's fast forward. I'm 50 years old now. It's that age when you start to worry about your health. You hear of friends and family having strokes and heart attacks at the same age. The pressures of life are mounting and you want to be around to look after your loved ones. You are tired of being unhealthy. You are are tired of doing what you know is hurting you. You are tired of being tired.
In the last 10 years i've had these same sentiments many times. And i've quit many times. Once for 3 years! I would estimate my total smoking years (age 40-50) was about 5 years, including all the 'quits'.
The thing that bugs me (about myself) is my weakness. Every time i'm faced with a major pressure in life (business, relationships, finances, family illness etc), I go and buy a 10 pack of cigs. I keep 2 and throw the rest away. Next time I buy a pack, i keep 5 and throw the rest. By the end of the week, i think I might as well keep the whole pack. And i'm back to being a smoker again.
This time i'm determined. I've read the Allen Carr book. I've viewed all the WhyQuit videos. And i've been reading these forums every day. You guys really are an inspiration!! Hope I can soon join you on your success stories. Hope I can quit, not for 1 month, 1 year or 3 years.... but forever..
I suppose I need to take it a day at a time. In fact this time I feel that i'll be dealing with it an hour at a time. It seems to have taken more of a hold on me recently.
Anyway, I'm starting my quit tomorrow. I'll be posting my journey on the Day1, Day2 etc sections.
Wish me luck... and thanks for inspiring me to quit once and for all