Yes, I entered week 11 with a lump on the head.... Did I bump it in my over boiling weeks of new found serenity, energy and freedom or is the life long addiction's damage starting to to emerge like boils from deep inside ? Well it was unsuspected and unexpected.
I was never suspicious that there could be so much anger..... from this demon that was in control of my live....being released so suddenly and fierce when pushed aside and out of my live...
The unexpected part is that it took me down, to a abrupt standstill, weakening my body by filling it with aches and pains trying to weaken me out.
BUT... he never had such a difficult and stubborn opponent and I will not give in, will not defend but attack because the reward was in my hand already and will not be taken away. I will fight to retain it. I am so grateful that this.... (second withdrawal ? ?).... comes with no craving for a cigarette and or thought that it will ease the pain.
Totally flat now and thought I am overdoing it again by walking the clearing of a new fence line with the GPS and plotting it on Google, found it to be 9.3 km. I am totally depleted of all energy at this stage but believe as the days go on I will regain that full blown energy and again start planning to take over the world (LOL)