As smokers, we are very aware of the potential negative consequences of smoking, I know I am. The health adverts passed me by, the price and nagging hasn't helped much - still I continue to smoke and continue to use my inhalers - still I had another cancer opp - contradiction or what! To a non-smoker I must appear as a crazy lady!
So why now, this year, this month? What's different?
I hadn't really thought about my reasons until now.... I have had a course of champix in the cupboard for 2 years, so I have been thinking about it. I gave my first course of champix a go and to my surprise I found they worked! Unfortunately, 3 weeks into my course my brother had a heart attack and quad by-pass, so he needed to stay with us a while - so quitting for me at that time was not to be 
So, Spring is on the way - natures renewal, another cancer, MRI shows some lung damage (COPD), don't want to end up on oxygen etc.... time to quit before I've gone beyond the point where I do not need a wheelchair and oxygen in 10 years time.
I started cutting down to half a ciggie at any one time a couple of months before I started champix - then took the plunge.
I enjoy nature and my crystals so have also been practicing meditating and turning my thoughts around - I find this aspect very challenging - getting my head around it all.
To me, giving up smoking feels akin to loss - essentially, I am grieving - gosh, I really am a nicotine addict :eek:
Why today?
Why is this happening
