That means it was 5 months yesterday and just thought I'd check in. Still having my ups and downs and still saying, 'Today I won't smoke.' But the overwhelming feeling is that of relief. Relief that I can breathe better; relief that I don't have to sneak off for a cigarette and relief that I'm doing the best thing I ever did for my health. I went to visit a friend and her newborn baby today and I can't begin to say how good I felt about not smelling of smoke when I held the wee cutie. So, while I struggle, I hold onto all of the good things and they far outweigh the desire for a cigarette.