Second day was a bit tough - as Princess mentions - it is as if the whole world is conspiring to p*ss you off.... the reality though is prolly the brain looking for an excuse - any excuse - to light up again.
Awoke early this morning - brushed teeth and headed to Victoria market here in Melbourne to pick up fresh food for my dog. It's going to be very hot today - 38oC - so kinda stuck inside to keep cool.
I am feeling bored - but still grimly determined not to smoke. The smell is out of my fingers and hair - and I talk to myself about all the good things that go with quitting - and insanely - out of left field come thoughts like - "you've done reaaaalllly well not smoking for a couple of days - go on, reward yourself with a cigarette' It's as if SMOKING and CIGARETTES are two different things and not related.
Makes me p***ed off just writing about it. Tobacco companies hire psychologists, psychiatrists and all manner of professionals to make you feel good about parting with your hard earned cash in exchange for a shorter lifespan. How f***ed is that?
On another note - I look forward to staying smober - for all those sanctimonious non smokers who have looked down their snouts at me over the years - can enjoy higher tax rates - now that I am no longer subsidising them. Ha! I have spent my entire life internalising my feelings - and this is the result. Well, i'm done with that.
Sorry about the rant - but that is my mind space at the moment. Do I feel like a ciggie now? No Sir - I am too busy grinding my axe.