It has become clear recently that my job my be under threat. Now this has happened countless times over the 25 years that I've worked there so it's nothing new.
The thing is, I realised today that every single other time I've worried and panicked about how I would manage working somewhere where they don't "have" to make allowances for my addiction. For one reason or another I have never found myself in a position where I had to constantly go any length of time without furthering my addiction. This was so much the case that, as I smoked more and more, I found myself in a position of not moving on from an employment point of view because I was SCARED of working anywhere else!!!!
I'm ashamed to admit that, I class myself of average intelligence and I couldn't even see how WRONG that was.
Anyway, I sat thinking about finding myself back on the job market today and found myself feeling "hopeful" and "optimistic" and, dare I say, just a little excited. Because, you know what? I'm free! I don't need to worry about losing a job because I'm taking a break every hour, I can go all day!!!
I'm so very proud of myself, and, I'm only just beginning to realise what this thing that I've done for myself can mean to my life in the long run.
It benefits so much more than health. I feel so much more confident because for the first time in my life I KNOW I'm a strong person.
So newbies, even if you don't feel the physical benefits straight away, look forward and think of all those things that are going to get better and better and better, and are going to just keep on getting better! There really is no end!!
Good evening to you all
Very Happy Molly