Hello everyone,
My story in short: my first attempt was in mid-August, using e-cig (with a high nicotine content). It went well, I mean too well. I realised, I like the e-cig, it is much better than the real cig, no smell, better taste, cheaper, healthier, etc, I didn’t miss the tobacco at all. I felt I could have lived with e-cig in the rest of my life. But wait a minute, this is not the plan, I wanted to be nicotine free, but instead, I guess I’ve consumed more nicotine than ever. Lucky those who can use it less and less. That was the plan for the 2nd week, but I just couldn’t do it. All right then, this is not the right way for me. This is something but not quitting at all. I need a new plan, and a second try to succeed.
As soon as I realised this, I sat back and lit a cigarette. Yes, a real one. And some more since then. I know, I know, yes, we can say simply that I’ve failed, but… failure would be giving up and not trying again. Relapse can make us smarter and stronger and even more determined. This is what I feel now. So I have chosen a date again (one month after my first try), decided to use all of the remaining nicotine around me till that day and not to buy any more.
Also reading Allen Carr and others all day, every day, it helps me a lot to understand my addiction better. Have smoked a few cigs and a lot more e-cigs a day over the last 2 weeks, but I could see the end of it.
Got prepared for my second /the final/the real battle, without NRT this time. I mean, I bought a zero nicotine liquid this morning, just in case. But NO MORE NICOTINE!
Well, the day has come, tomorrow is my first day (I mean the second first). Had my LAST cigarette a few minutes ago, so I am a non smoker now.
I can’t write every day, but will keep you posted.