My names Simon I'm 25.
My last cigarette was almost 24 hours ago now and i feel pretty strong, regardless of it being early days yet, though I expect to be thoroughly tested lol. My motivation to quit was not actually wanting to anymore but at the end of last year I found out I had a small tumor in my stomach. Since then I've being really health anxious. It feels like every niggle and pain completely dominates my thoughts and the only logical explanation I can summon is cancer...
I'm not sure if anyone else has experienced this and can relate.
Since I found out about my little tumor it seems to have put into perspective how precious life is, I guess staring into the unknown really gives you a sense of mortality. I had quit for a few weeks when I found out but the pressure really gt to me and I began smoking again. Which I became to resent my self for. My tumor was tested and was found to be benign but instead of removing it they have left it and wanted to take more biopsies a year later. Because of this it feels like I have had no closure. Leaving me feeling almost like a ticking time bomb.
As I mentioned though health anxiety seems to be a good and bad thing as it had spurred me to kick the habit. Also on the flip side dominates my mood for the negative. Although I guess keeping me focused. I'm not actually clinically regarded as a hypo or health anxious person but I understand what i feel mentally and emotionally.
So for a while now I've being getting intermittent back ache on the right side of my spine about an inch below my right shoulder blade in a small localised spot about the size of a 50p coin I guess, and a weird intermittent ache inside my chest when breathing very short and shallow. I cant make this ache appear myself just occasionally pops up. Obviously I'm convinced I have lung cancer and have scared myself so bad I finally decided it time to drop the cigs with no looking back.
Im not sure if all this im experiencing is anxiety manifesting itself as physical symptoms. I went to the docs last week and he said my lungs are clear and sound good. So I guess that should have give me peace but annoyingly not im still letting my thoughts run away with themselves.
Sorry if this kinda went off on a tanjent or broke any forum rules but feels nice getting it off my chest. Especially if someone can come back with any positive feedback or similar experiences.
I have been feeling a bit spaced out today, which has worried me a bit lol but iv read this can be a withdrawal of nicotine. More oxygen in the blood. Not sure if its true but im looking forward to it passing :-).
If anyone is up for offering me some logical straight minded advice please do.
Anyways thanks for reading and wish me luck!.