Good try Nic, but not good enough :D

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Hiya

It's been a fab sunny weekend, well mostly managed to get some more sun on my horribly pale legs - and to wear the shorts I bought for last summer. :eek:

Was doing the same yesterday with my friends, but was at home today doing a few bits outside - and driving my mum mad by asking her what that lovely smell is, going round sniffing all the flowers and so on, she said it reminded her of when I was a toddler - but anyway i was enjoying myself in the sun when old smellyfeatures pops up. :mad:

He did a bit yesterday but one of the friends I was with smokes and smelling her smoke, not to mention the smell on her put me right off!!

I used to be the only smoker here though - Nic did a good job, nagging at me to have a smoke, how it would be really nice in the sunshine with a glass of something in one hand and a fag in the other like I used to, and when that didn't get him anywhere (I went and sniffed the flowers I couldn't smell for years) he tried making me nostalgic for all the times I enjoyed smoking - how it was fun, how I liked it, trying to make me miss it, blah blah.

That got a bit more traction in my brain and it really was manky for a while but some gum and keeping myself busy helped me to kick his stinky carcass over the hedge

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That's our girl - GO GEMMA GO!!!:D:D

I had the same thought sat on the terrace with a glass of champers in the sunshine - it was several years ago I last sat here in the sun with a glass of the good stuff and I had a cigarette with it last time, I rather enjoyed it as a I remember, etc, etc.......swiftly followed by the view is still fantastic, the sunshine is just as lovely, the champagne tastes even better, as did lunch, and I can cuddle and rough house with the boys without worrying that Katkin is smelly - I am missing out on NOTHING!!!:D:D

So it's a day of triumph for the Kernow Quitters - us girls have got it sussed!:cool:

*High fives*

Ooh posh, champers? That sounds fab!!

Hope you're having a fab time hun

And yes, it's lovely not having to worry about whether we smell or not :cool:

We're definitely not missing out!!

YAY the Kernow Quitters

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Magnificent footwork from our 2 resident Cornish beauties isn't it ridiculous how a bit of sun,a memory,a certain food,second hand smoke,all can throw up a crave which can take quite a bit of dislodging.

BUT as you say,nothing is any better with a fag,in fact things are diminished and made poorer so if you want the full life experience it just has to be fag free :cool:

Thanks Max

I like second hand smoke in a weird way TBH, it reminds me what a vile thing smoking is and how bad it makes you and your breath smell!!

What I don't get though is how I could have spent so long sucking that into myself and enjoying it :confused::confused:

Am loving the freedom I'm getting not having to trot off outside every hour to smoke!!

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Mind you hearing the woman on the telly giving her wheezy smoker's laugh is a huge help :eek:

Was starting to get one of them *blech*

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I'm certainly with you that second hand smoke helps! It really puts me off now!

Well done for getting through it!

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Way to go Gemma and Kat for resisting the urge, its ****** tough in this weather, we will beat the evil weed!!! I had urges again but the cat kept me busy!

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I'm certainly with you that second hand smoke helps! It really puts me off now!

Well done for getting through it!

Thanks

The second hand smoke really brings you back to earth with a bump doesn't it?

Nic's there telling you how lovely a ciggie would be and suddenly you smell it and *icky*

Way to go Gemma and Kat for resisting the urge, its ****** tough in this weather, we will beat the evil weed!!! I had urges again but the cat kept me busy!

Thanks Kazzy

It is tough but we're tougher

And your cat is so lovely!!

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So the moral of the story is.... Don't avoid smokers and smoky places as it helps us realise how disgusting it is!

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I posted on another thread, in a bizarre way I don't always think its a good thing that all my friends are non smokers - I need someone puffing away to make it sink in how gross it is!

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So the moral of the story is.... Don't avoid smokers and smoky places as it helps us realise how disgusting it is!

That's true when you're strong enough!!

Early on in my quit I'd have probably grabbed the fag out of her hand and smoked it in a few puffs, but now *icky*

I posted on another thread, in a bizarre way I don't always think its a good thing that all my friends are non smokers - I need someone puffing away to make it sink in how gross it is!

You're right!!

Now only a few of my friends smoke (compared to when we were teens and most of us did, either socially or regularly) but it really does bring it home how foul it smells.

And eeeepppppp I used to smell like that *Cries*

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I had my dad and stepmom staying with me from day 5 of my quit. They are both smokers and it actually helped me that they were smoking around me. I don't know why it put me off so much but it did. And the smell afterwards ... Yuck!

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Hiya

It's been a fab sunny weekend, well mostly managed to get some more sun on my horribly pale legs - and to wear the shorts I bought for last summer. :eek:

Was doing the same yesterday with my friends, but was at home today doing a few bits outside - and driving my mum mad by asking her what that lovely smell is, going round sniffing all the flowers and so on, she said it reminded her of when I was a toddler - but anyway i was enjoying myself in the sun when old smellyfeatures pops up. :mad:

He did a bit yesterday but one of the friends I was with smokes and smelling her smoke, not to mention the smell on her put me right off!!

I used to be the only smoker here though - Nic did a good job, nagging at me to have a smoke, how it would be really nice in the sunshine with a glass of something in one hand and a fag in the other like I used to, and when that didn't get him anywhere (I went and sniffed the flowers I couldn't smell for years) he tried making me nostalgic for all the times I enjoyed smoking - how it was fun, how I liked it, trying to make me miss it, blah blah.

That got a bit more traction in my brain and it really was manky for a while but some gum and keeping myself busy helped me to kick his stinky carcass over the hedge

I've had to have a word with myself on a couple of occasions this weekend too :rolleyes:

I've thought about smoking a lot to be honest. But it's as though the scales have tipped. When I first quit the smoker side of my brain was definately in charge but, even though the voice is still there, the non-smoker side of my brain (the part with the common sense) is making the rules now.

I hate that the little devil is still trying, but it's nice to be able to bat him away and enjoy the freedom of choosing not to listen to him!

Well done hun, it's tough when that sunshine comes out. Jut another test for us to pass with flying colours!! Xxx

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I had my dad and stepmom staying with me from day 5 of my quit. They are both smokers and it actually helped me that they were smoking around me. I don't know why it put me off so much but it did. And the smell afterwards ... Yuck!

You're lucky in a way

Noen of my family smoke, which of course meant i was the leper when I smoked!!

But ick, the smell is foul :eek:

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I've had to have a word with myself on a couple of occasions this weekend too :rolleyes:

I've thought about smoking a lot to be honest. But it's as though the scales have tipped. When I first quit the smoker side of my brain was definately in charge but, even though the voice is still there, the non-smoker side of my brain (the part with the common sense) is making the rules now.

I hate that the little devil is still trying, but it's nice to be able to bat him away and enjoy the freedom of choosing not to listen to him!

Well done hun, it's tough when that sunshine comes out. Jut another test for us to pass with flying colours!! Xxx

Aww it's a bit tough isn't it?

I know you'll get through it hun 'cos you're as determined as I am

Lol, well we both quit in the winter and now at the end of May we're finally getting our first sunny day tests - what does that say about our weather?

It's nice telling that horrible whiny addict part to *ahem* off isn't it? lol

xxx

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Magnificent footwork from our 2 resident Cornish beauties isn't it ridiculous how a bit of sun,a memory,a certain food,second hand smoke,all can throw up a crave which can take quite a bit of dislodging.

BUT as you say,nothing is any better with a fag,in fact things are diminished and made poorer so if you want the full life experience it just has to be fag free :cool:

Well I don't count myself as a Cornish beauty (as I don't come from Cornwall:D), but I could have easily folded today...

Rest of the family off sightseeing, blazing sun, bank holiday weekend... a few beers in the local pub, what a cue for a smoke. But I didn't, because I CHOSE NOT TO. And that is my choice, every day, even a few months in when Nic tries to sneak up and bite you on the bum - no nicotine today thank you very much. The thought of 'one cigarette', alluring though it may be, is nothing but an illusion, and the thousands that go with the one? - yuk, no thanks

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Well I don't count myself as a Cornish beauty (as I don't come from Cornwall:D), but I could have easily folded today...

Rest of the family off sightseeing, blazing sun, bank holiday weekend... a few beers in the local pub, what a cue for a smoke. But I didn't, because I CHOSE NOT TO. And that is my choice, every day, even a few months in when Nic tries to sneak up and bite you on the bum - no nicotine today thank you very much. The thought of 'one cigarette', alluring though it may be, is nothing but an illusion, and the thousands that go with the one? - yuk, no thanks

Isn't it weird how the weather or something random like that can make you really crave?

Great that we all got through it smoke free though

After all my previous failures I'm definitely not under any illusions about having "just one" - know if I had smoked yesterday it would only be a matter of time before I was on 20-odd a day again 'cos i'm an addict and always will be.

Might be daft, but as I'm on NRT I don't think it's the nicotine I craved but the actual smoking bit, it sounds stupid when I type it!! I guess because it's something that's been a part of me in one form or another for so long? And because although I've had quits in the past most of my really good memories are from when I smoked so that's something to do with it too?

*Is waffling*

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Isn't it weird how the weather or something random like that can make you really crave?

Great that we all got through it smoke free though

After all my previous failures I'm definitely not under any illusions about having "just one" - know if I had smoked yesterday it would only be a matter of time before I was on 20-odd a day again 'cos i'm an addict and always will be.

Might be daft, but as I'm on NRT I don't think it's the nicotine I craved but the actual smoking bit, it sounds stupid when I type it!! I guess because it's something that's been a part of me in one form or another for so long? And because although I've had quits in the past most of my really good memories are from when I smoked so that's something to do with it too?

*Is waffling*

Hi Gemma,

You are right, not to have "just one", that's how my last quit failed, its a slippery slope we just have to ride it out. They are not full on craves like at the beginning, just thoughts, moments and associations. Its the association of sitting in the sun with a beer and fag which needs to be broken and in my opinion I think that's one of the hardest ones to break!!

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Hi Gemma,

You are right, not to have "just one", that's how my last quit failed, its a slippery slope we just have to ride it out. They are not full on craves like at the beginning, just thoughts, moments and associations. Its the association of sitting in the sun with a beer and fag which needs to be broken and in my opinion I think that's one of the hardest ones to break!!

Hi Karen

Oh you're right!! I've lost so many quits, and "quitlets" in the past 'cos of "just one" - and my 18 month quit went south because i had a row and thought having a fag was a fab way of sticking my fingers up :/

NOPE, I just can't do it!! I used to be able to smoke as much as I wanted then not touch them again for ages but that was before I got hooked.

It definitely is had breaking the memories - and Nic does know how to play your mind - but no, go away Nic!!

If anything my time with the e-cig was helpful because it was caving and failing without actually smoking (if that makes sense) it mirrored what would happen if I had bought fags.

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24 weeks

Thought I'd post this 'cos it's now 24 weeks since I stuck a stinky fag in my mouth :cool::cool:

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Can't believe I'd have puffed through that number of ciggies (it's an underestimate actually 'cos I put 20 in the box and i was on 20-ish, plus time with my friends and nights out used to = Chimney Gem) saved that amount of extra life and "saved" all that money. Well I say saved, but most of it's gone on clothes and shoes

Random sidetrack: it's lovely not wrecking my clothes and shoes any more. No more fag burns on my clothes - used to be clumsy when I was tipsy and burned so many lovely things and one of my favourite pairs of going out shoes has loads of burn marks on their soles from stamping on fag ends :/

And my clothes smell lovely and fresh all day, not smoky!!

YAY for being a non-smoker

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Wow, that's a lot of money!! :eek::rolleyes:

Great work hun!! Look at how many cigarettes you haven't smoked and how many days you've added onto your life!! xxx

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Wow, that's a lot of money!! :eek::rolleyes:

Great work hun!! Look at how many cigarettes you haven't smoked and how many days you've added onto your life!! xxx

Aw thanks hun

It's all flipping brilliant isn't it? At this rate I'm gaining a month of extra life every year, and more money to spend How fab is that?

xxx

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Fantastic Gemma xx

Look at that cash saving :eek::eek:

Yay thanks Max :cool:

Isn't it amazing, know Marlboro lights aren't cheap (cheapest I could stand to smoke though) but even so it's a shocking amount!!

xx

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Had a bit of a shock that's upset me far more than it should have TBH and now I'm really tempted to say stuff it and smoke.

Someone slap me!! :eek::eek::eek:

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DON'T YOU DARE!!!!!:mad::mad::mad:

*** THWACK!!!***

followed swiftly by a big hug to my fellow Kernow Quitter - whatever it is, don't let it derail your quit, you've worked soooo hard to get to where you are! xxx

Thanks hun, I feel a bit of an idiot TBH but hey.

Expect I'll settle back down and be OK soon xxx

Another big THWACK!!!!!!!:eek::eek:

Followed by a great big hug to you Gemma lovely,what on Earth happened? xx

Thanks Max

It's flipping ridiculous really but it really upset me :/

At least i didn't give in - scary how something can make you stop caring and almost junk a 5 and a half month quit.

Instead I've just chomped the gum - too much really but it's not smoking.

xx

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Well done for not caving! I hope you are ok!!

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Well done for not caving! I hope you are ok!!

X

Thanks

I'll be OK hun

Hope you feel better soon xx

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You scared the life out of me :eek:

Promise me you will be ok?

What was the upset?

And most of all remember-smoking NEVER makes anything better.

xxx

Sorry Max, didn't mean to!!

Think I'll be OK, I feel a bit of an idiot but hey.

Stupid thing wasn't that I properly craved or that I thought it would help, was just "bugger it I'm having a fag" - glad I didn't.

xxx

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Wine makes it better

Am going to regret this tomorrow, but I don't care.

Stupid me. :mad::mad:

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The important thing at this point in time is that you are NOT smoking and you can't get out to buy any. Big hug sweetie, I so know how you feel xxx

You're right, I'm not although I really would love a smoke right now. And I'm definitely not in a state to go and buy some ciggies!!

*Hugs back* it's horrible isn't it? xxx

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Awww Gemma *hugs* honey. Sometimes things out of the blue shock us or upset us without warning and it still is often a jnee jerk reaction to reach for ciggies. Do whatever you need to to not smoke, drink wine, eat chocolate, have a bath, go to bed, tomorrow is another day sweetie and things will look brighter in the morning xxx

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Awww Gemma *hugs* honey. Sometimes things out of the blue shock us or upset us without warning and it still is often a jnee jerk reaction to reach for ciggies. Do whatever you need to to not smoke, drink wine, eat chocolate, have a bath, go to bed, tomorrow is another day sweetie and things will look brighter in the morning xxx

Thanks hun

Am going to go to bed and cry probably but hey, at least I didn't smoke.

xxx

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Are you sure you are ok? You sound really sad

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Are you sure you are ok? You sound really sad

I am really sad, I'll survive though.

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I'm sorry to hear that. Hope you feel a bit happier tomorrow. Anything that any of us could help with?

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I'm sorry to hear that. Hope you feel a bit happier tomorrow. Anything that any of us could help with?

Thanks hun

It's just me being silly as usual.

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It is hon, but we'll get through - maybe we should start playing poker, see if we can prove the adage! xxx

If that's true I should win like a 5 times rollover on the lottery :/

xxx

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Thanks hun

It's just me being silly as usual.

I'm sure you aren't! But tomorrow is another day - hope you feel better after a good night's sleep.

Sarah x

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*** if there are any hugs and cuddles of lovely ladies to be had,I am game here to join in,just sayin' ******** :p

Chin up Gemma love,new day tomorrow. X

Lol thanks Max!!

You did make me laugh a bit which definitely isn't easy at the moment.

Hope tomorrow's better :/ x

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I'm sure you aren't! But tomorrow is another day - hope you feel better after a good night's sleep.

Sarah x

Thank you Sarah

I flipping hope so too!! x

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You always give me support on my threads so just wanted to stop by and ask if you're feeling better now cos I've been moaning all day and you listened to me and kept me on track

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You always give me support on my threads so just wanted to stop by and ask if you're feeling better now cos I've been moaning all day and you listened to me and kept me on track

X

Aw thanks hun

I'll get there in the end!! Glad i helped you xx

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Aw thanks hun

I'll get there in the end!! Glad i helped you xx

Anything you wanna talk about? I'm currently stood in the gym getting ready to punish my body with weights rather than those b*stard fags!

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Anything you wanna talk about? I'm currently stood in the gym getting ready to punish my body with weights rather than those b*stard fags!

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Ooh good luck!!

Um, it's just that I got properly upset yesterday and Positive Gemma seems to have done a flit so I'm here slugging it out, lol.

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Ooh good luck!!

Um, it's just that I got properly upset yesterday and Positive Gemma seems to have done a flit so I'm here slugging it out, lol.

x

I hate it when positivity goes away but then again it's impossible to be happy all the time. I'm a right emo half the time and just listen to angry music and tell myself how crap the world is lol. I'm just some random girl on a forum but if I can say something that stops you reaching for a pack of fags it's totally worth it...

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I hate it when positivity goes away but then again it's impossible to be happy all the time. I'm a right emo half the time and just listen to angry music and tell myself how crap the world is lol. I'm just some random girl on a forum but if I can say something that stops you reaching for a pack of fags it's totally worth it...

It's a real pain!!

Worse is that it's way more to do with me getting upset than my actual quit - stupid brain!! Sort of "bugger it I don't care" much more than actually wanting to smoke.

Am sure that after 5 and a half months without smoking if I did cave it would taste revolting and make me sick, lol. so I won't

Hope you got on well in the gym!!

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Am sure that after 5 and a half months without smoking if I did cave it would taste revolting and make me sick, lol. so I won't

Good girl

Hope you got on well in the gym!!

I nearly threw up a couple of times, it was great! The gym instructor lady is really motivational, I need someone like that in my normal life to keep me on the right track lol.

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Good girl

I nearly threw up a couple of times, it was great! The gym instructor lady is really motivational, I need someone like that in my normal life to keep me on the right track lol.

Ooh wow, nearly threw up? :eek::eek::eek:

*Is suddenly very glad she's stretched out in her PJ's with a pot of tea*

Glad it's doing the trick for you though

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Ooh wow, nearly threw up? :eek::eek::eek:

*Is suddenly very glad she's stretched out in her PJ's with a pot of tea*

Glad it's doing the trick for you though

Oh yeah, I'm very much of the opinion if you're not covered in sweat and completely knackered you didn't work hard enough

Although your evening sounds equally as appealing

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Oh yeah, I'm very much of the opinion if you're not covered in sweat and completely knackered you didn't work hard enough

Although your evening sounds equally as appealing

Oh wow, lol i really should get into exercise :eek:

Ooh and it's doing the trick for me