This is my first post although I have been 'lurking' for about 2 months. I love this forum and it has been such an inspiration and source of support. In fact, I feel that some of you are my closest friends, such has been the benefit of your posts.
Anyway, I am using champix and stopped smoking 31 days. Yesterday, my practice nurse diagnosed me with asthma and moderate copd. She said my lung capacity is 63% and that's as good as it's going to get. I've to use a symbicort inhaler twice a day and she'll review me in a year.
I am gutted. This is the first time I have tried to quit and was beginning to feel good about myself and this has just upset me so much. My mum died 16 months ago from copd. It was about 5 years from her diagnosis to her death but she had survived breast and cervical cancer prior to copd.
I know I chose to smoke but my decision to quit was to reclaim 'control' and was quietly so proud of myself but now all I can think of is 'I want a cigarette' and I'm struggling not to give in. Does it ever get easier? People on here have said they have had days where they don't even have a single thought about a cigarette -will that ever happen for me?
Any advice or thoughts would be greatly appreciated and sorry for my rant.