I was doing really well and was entering into month three (will admit to two slip ups whilst drinking) but day to day I had quit and can honestly say that I had never felt better in my life.
I went on holiday and craved the whole week but did not give in mainly because I could not as I was with family who would have gone mad!
Came home to some terribly sad news about tragic death of a friend and the 1st thing I did was to buy cigarettes. I smoked for ten days and am now back to the beginning and have been smoke free since 9.00 pm on Saturday 28th April.
I have learnt some lessons mainly around alcohol and also in crisis smoking did not help - it actually made me feel even worse - like a failure and also like I was using tragic news as an excuse which made me feel very lousy.
So here I go again.