day 31+99

[nsd_user663_12625]

day 31+99 . hey everybody month 2 tomorrow. woke up with a splitting headache took some pills waiting for them to work. hope you are all doing ok . I am still off the fags and am very happy to be able to say that. one twelfth of the year done. good luck to all of you and see you in the 2 month room tomorrow.

[jae0404]

Day 31...........

Hello fellow quitters and hello to the end of January, the 1st month of not having a cigarette. Welcoming Feb because its a shorter month and the days will fly by.

The cravings are few and far between now and going out last sat night and getting a little sloshed without a cigarette is a big bonus in my book even with friends telling me in their drunken state that 1 will be ok,well not in my book young lady!!!!

Well done to all that have got this far within the new year quitters and to all just starting out.... you can do it.....to all that have done it for much longer,you really are an inspiration...your posts have been very helpful especially in comparison to how i have been feeling on certain days!

Good work everyone and we are now a step closer to being reformed smokers.

Jackie

[nsd_user663_35163]

jae0404

Day 127:

Hi Jackie, ignore your friends on this. It always helps when you get a reminder, so try this from KitKat72

Its hard to explain, but i will try...here goes! you come to the moment of breaking that quit..whether it is just in complete temper...upset, frustration ...or that you think you are in control and that you will get back to your quit tomorrow! of course all this is in your mind! but in reality it isnt that easy ...

you buy that pack of 10.... (you only buy 10 because you think your not going to smoke anymore) .....so from the very moment of purchase your already thinking of being quit! (senseless ....a little,) but the overpowering urge to smoke knocks down every little bit of courage and good thoughts you have about not smoking...even the hard work gone into your quit goes out the window. You get home...still thinking that you will not smoke tomorrow! you open the packet, like an old ritual coming back, it feels a bit nice, but even at that moment of opening the pack makes you feel very uncomfortable..

You have a 2nd thought..should i..or shouldnt I....you talk yourself into smoking them because youve just spent over 3 quid on buying them. still thinking i wont smoke tomorrow... i can do it etc etc! .... you smoke the first one! dosnt taste too nice at all! but you get that buzz dizzy sensation in your head that you got all that time ago when you first began your smoking career! that part gives you a nice warmth, like a memory ...... you have another one! ...it feels ok... you think you are in control but you are not! come about the 3rd cigarette, you begin to cry, you feel desperate, you are now thinking wtf have i done! you begin to think how happy you was has a non smoker, you start to get back all you reasons why you quit in the first place, you feel let down! the dissapointment that you will feel is like nothing you will have felt before....you continue to smoke the rest of the cigarettes just because.

You tell yourself that you wont smoke tomorrow.....tomorrow arrives! you buy some more, you tell yourself you arent strong enough yet and best to leave it a bit to get your head together again....... Of course all these things that you are telling yourself are all lies to make yourself feel better! ....

You never give up trying once you know you can go a reasonable time without it! ...... wasting all that time and energy on stopping and starting is deeply embedded in my mind! ........ so 3 things... it will taste like sh*t, you will feel drained & ill after the first few (already feeling the poisons going back into you).... and the overwhelming dissapointment is not worth it .. not one bit.

just my personal experence, but in my opinion if someone breaks a quit and is okay about it, like dosnt feel any upset or regret, then they never really wanted to quit in the first place.

[nsd_user663_40738]

Count me in on day 31. I already went over to month 2 yesterday. Got to make sure we all be welcome....LOL

We should all have a party to celebrate 31 days without a fag stinking up the place. It is wonderful to say that I do not smoke. I love that!! Of course I will never let my guard down and think I can do "just one". We all know better.

See you guys in the next month

[jae0404]

Thanks Jimmer for that little pearl of wisdom, I was really worried knowing that on that night all of my friends smoke and usually, well last year, I would have joined them outside but I was determined that I could seperate the two,enjoying myself and not having the need for cigarettes and I knew I could do it and not once all night was I tempted even when they were telling me that 1 would not hurt, well having been there and done that many times before I know that 1 would have done more damage!!! Also Undone all my hard work to this point!!!

I remained strong all night and to be honest the only time I went out was to cool down after dancing my little ass off and one friend was trying to tempt me and I didn't even like the smell of it!!

I know I am far from being a non smoker but that's a big step for me.

Well done all and see you in month 2!!!

Jackie