keeping my chin up on day 4.

[nsd_user663_40680]

Hello there fellow day foureers and anyone else listening.

Here I am on day four of my quit. I've been posting everyday and can I say it really helps me to vent my feelings about this "process" and being bolstered by the kind support of those on the forum. So far I've been feeling positive and most of my posts have been to this effect.

Prior to my quit I read a lot of stuff on the net and thought I'd gained a reasonable understanding of this terrible addiction.. but ....oh how I wish a magic fairy would appear , wave her wand and say you never started Pammie and 20 years of smoking are banished in a fell swoop.

I've read about the terrible threes , but can I just say day 4 has been pretty hellish I had quite a lot of free time on my hands today as my kids were with my family and can I say I spent a good few hours feeling sorry for myself, shed a few tears and beat myself up about my smoking wishing I never had started, all the money that went up in smoke etc etc etc... anyone else felt like this?.

I'm trying to focus on the here and now and taking it one day at a time and keeping in sight the benefits that lie ahead and most importantly the freedom from the slavery of the nico-demon. It doesn't help that I am still feeling pretty grotty from the champix. Deep breaths and onwards and upwards. Thank god my boiler is fixed that was yesterdays trigger point..hey at least I am warm and miserable.

Sorry for the rant,

Pammie.

[nsd_user663_41410]

Hi Pammie

I too am on day four !! I have had an ok day just kept myself busy :), lots of washing, lots of ironing and generally tidying up !! I have just found the forum today and I hope to post each day, and hopefully things will get better. I am soo glad that I have decided to give up, my house and clothes are smelling a whole lot better. Keep up the good work and I am rooting for you.

Elaine

[nsd_user663_40936]

Hi Pammie,

I'm on day 8, feeling ok, but like you day 4 was pretty rough :-).

You will come through it and tomorrow will be a lovely fresh day and you'll be a step closer to freedom!

I think that this process is an emotional roller coaster, so let's try and keep each other motivated!

Well done you!

[nsd_user663_32615]

....oh how I wish a magic fairy would appear , wave her wand and say you never started Pammie and 20 years of smoking are banished in a fell swoop.

In the absence of the magic fairy, all that I can say is stay with it, and things will soon start to look up again.

I think we can all remember those feelings, and there are a lot of people who have found day four to be the real monster. Get your first week under your belt, though, and the easy times become more common, while the tough bits get shorter and less intense.

You are doing really well - just keep going and it will all be worthwhile.

[nsd_user663_26940]

Evening Pammie- still with ya- but like you today has been a killer-but you know what its another day nearly done and it feels bloody lovely.

If only that fairy would come along !! Now thats a nice thought- I'll bear that in mind while I have another night of strange and sweaty dreams...(nightmeres...). How you been at sleeping? Last night was on and off waking and have bizaarr dreams that I dont seem to have had the last time I quit..

Keep at it we're all doing great

[nsd_user663_20558]

I know at the beginning of my quit I found it really tough if my husband took the kids out, because during those moments of peace and quiet I'd always rushed out and smoked my head off. Huge trigger! Thank god for cake is all I can say.

You're doing so well to make it to day four. You're nearly through hell week. Keep going! And reward yourself, you deserve it.

Helen x

[nsd_user663_40680]

Thank you.

Hello,

Thanks for the kind words of support and encouragement....feel a lot better this evening a lot calmer and ready to face tommorow with all its trials and tribulations.

Thanks again guys your posts keep me going.

Best

Pammie