So what was i doing one year ago today
for starters i was feeling so so scared, i was panic smoking like you wouldnt believe [thought if i smoked loads i could build up abit of a stock pile inside me ,WRONG] i was very nervous on how i was gonna cope with stress, happiness, concentration, boredom etc i now see they completely contradict themselves.
i had really yellow fingers,yellow teeth, a hacking cough, smelt like a gone of ashtray, feared for my health on a daily basis, every tiny pain i had i was convinced i had cancer, i was trapped, i missed time with my kids so i could smoke, i didnt enjoy family days out as i didnt smoke infront of my kids, i remember driving home fast from places so i could smoke sooner, couldnt taste my food properly, couldnt smell properly, had blocked ears and couldnt hear well [about a month before i quit], never had money, when really skint would unroll dog ends and smoke them
and now
i can cope with stress, happiness,concentration and boredom ---just had to learn how to
yellow fingers ---- gone
yellow teeth -----white
hacking cough -----gone
smell like an ashtray ------ now smell delicious
fearing for my health ---- no longer the case
thinking i have cancer with each pain ----- dont get any pains
trapped-------------I AM FREE
missed time with my kids ------making up for lost time now
didnt enjoy family days out-----love em now they just go to quickly now
driving home fast----drive normally now as logic pervailled when nicodemon left me
couldnt taste----yummy yum can now
couldnt smell----mmmm can now
blocked ears-----gone
no money---still not great but spent on nice things now
smoking dog ends---kick myself for stooping so low
two days till i reach the penthouse did i think i could do this before i started----- not in a million years
to all you newbies it is so do-able all you have to do is get through the bad time to get to the good
thankyou to all on here who have helped me i hope i give some back now again helping others
