I decided to stop smoking on my 34th Bday. I have wanted to stop for years now but never got around to it. Even bought champix but left it in a drawer until it expired. Why now? Because my life is a mess and I desperately need a win right now. The biggest win would be to STOP smoking. To prove to myself I am not a slave of this herb.
I feared failing so much that I tried every technique…at once: Hypnosis, acupuncture, Tony Robbins, yoga, swimming, stopping weed, eating healthy, the book by Allen Car, and the mother of all nukes, Champix. Everything was synchronized to stop on the last hour of my 34th bday. Well it has been 2 weeks and three days with one slip on the 3rd day. Although I handle the craving pretty well since, I hate the idea of having a drug toy with my brains dopamine, I have moods swings, I am completely constipated, food tastes bad, have some rashes in the mouth and bad taste, go from euphoria, to compulsive negative thinking. After the first week I dropped the suggested dose to half (1mg), it feels somewhat better now and the craving did not rise, and I am thinking of dropping it again after 6 weeks. I joined this site because:
1- I just need to share. Sometimes I feel like crying or something, wish I would, I need to release, like if something had to give and want to know if it is normal.
2- Would like some suggestions regarding reducing prematurely the Champx. Is it ok if I dropped to 1mg after only 17 days? Would it be better to take twice 0.5mg? May I drop to 0.5 after 6 weeks and then stop after about 8-10?
3-Will it be a chock when I stop champix, will I suddenly crave cigarettes again?
ON A LIGHTER NOTE. I now feel that it is possible, Stopping cigarettes has turned my vicious cycle of bad habits into a virtuous cycle of good habits, I stopped weed (initially to avoid the nicotine, but now I just want to stop that too), I have so much more free time, so much more energy (unbelievable energy), I focus better at work and don´t go outside every 30 minutes,I believe I can be who I want to be. I work out instead of smoking and watching every tv serie available. I lost my tummy fat.
But it has only been 2 weeks and I need a drug to stop a drug. Will I make it in the long run without artificial help? Will I be free for real? I never want to go back…yet I know deep down I still miss something from the habit. I don´t want to be an ex-smoker, resisting the desire all my life. I want to be a non smoker again, just like before I started 17 years ago, but this time embracing the freedom.