god i really am hacked off with myself... i stopped smoking (again!) more than 48 hours ago and have just had a half a cigarette! why the hell cant i just stop??? so now i have to do 48 hrs all over again.. i am my own worst enemy.
i tried to stop smoking back in august i think it was.. i lasted a week. you'd think after a week you would never want to smoke again wouldnt you.. i always used to think well if i can get thru a whole 24 hrs without smoking then that should be it... but its not is it? when do you reach that blissful point of disgust and even apathy towards smoking... when do you stop craving (someone is going to say never i just know it )