Keep Vigilant

Well almost 10 months into my never a blip happy and confident quit....

Spent a week in Tenerife with daughter and parents and spent the whole week wanting a cig. Not just wanting but planning to buy cigs, planning to ask someone for a cig, watching other people smoke and thinking about all the situations I would enjoy a cig in. Flight was awful back desperately wanting a cig feeling like the old Lorna, the desperate a smoke Lorna...I forgot she even existed. :(

Home now and it still hasn't gone away....how on earth can this happen. Trying to get my head back into non smoking shape but not working so far, even contemplating one of OH rollies....LOL

I WONT SMOKE.....I cant and I wont I have not come this far to throw it away but it shows that no matter how strong we think our quits are it can still come back and bite you on the bum....big style.

Never let your guard down it is still there lurking in the background....looks like I need a big dose of positivity and probably a good run.....lol

L

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  • So glad you didnt smoke lorna....smoking dont think it will ever leave us:( damn, so not fair...Im sure it was just thoughts & memories..but all the same, bloody horrible to deal with & somtimes the pushing it away from our minds isnt quite as easy as it sounds..it just creeps right back up to the front again..:mad:

    Feel good of what youve done..almost 10 months & not even one little tiny drag ......Now that is just brilliant :)

  • So glad you didnt smoke lorna....smoking dont think it will ever leave us:( damn, so not fair...Im sure it was just thoughts & memories..but all the same, bloody horrible to deal with & somtimes the pushing it away from our minds isnt quite as easy as it sounds..it just creeps right back up to the front again..

    Feel good of what youve done..almost 10 months & not even one little tiny drag ......Now that is just brilliant :)

    I would not still be blip free if someone had not kept me on the straight and narrow last week Miss KK.....;)

    Shows the power of a quit buddy....:)

  • I would not still be blip free if someone had not kept me on the straight and narrow last week Miss KK.....;)

    Shows the power of a quit buddy....:)

    aww ta lorna ..didnt realise i had that much impact:)... so with my totting up i charge 2 quid a minute for my services :D

  • Well almost 10 months into my never a blip happy and confident quit....

    L

    Almost 10 months? 10 months??? Dear girl..... your almost 11 months :cool:

    Whilst you've been on a holiday just a couple of months ago prior, this one just returned from was different, in many ways and possibly bought a whole different batch of associations with it. Not surprising :)

    You went out with so much positivity and determination to smile ..... and I'm dam bloody sure you did too ............... but underneath the smiles, old habits, old needs re-surface.

    It's caught you out and you got through it. You did good ..... :cool:

    xx

  • Hey Lorna :) it sounds like a run is just what you need! That will sort you out, well thats what you said to me when i was down and it worked.

    When i read threads like this it always makes me wonder how and why this could happen especially when people are doing so well. I seriously can't get my head around it. People probably think i'm boasting about my quit but so what! because i know i'm not! but seriously .... i never crave at all but then i guess you didn't either!

    So what do you think brought it on ?? :confused:

    Hope your doing well now.

  • Thanks Pol....yes nearly 11 MONTHS....see what a messed head I have at the moment....LOL

    Angel..why??? Pretty much what Pol has said really. I had already been on holiday before and sailed through it, as you know I have a strong quit and was merrily going about my way thinking I had it beat. BUT, a holiday on my own with a whole bundle of stressing and time to think....OLD HABITS DIE HARD. My smile and wave attitude does not work when there is only me to smile and wave to....I will not smoke agian but there will obviously still be times when it still requires me to dig deep and push through.

    BUT....back home, taking real action and ready to go for my run...it will probably kill me but back in the saddle.

    Smiling and waveing....xxxx

  • You bloody well better not have a fag or you will have me to answer too, despite the fact i really really really want to win the bet lol

    hang in there sis x

  • You bloody well better not have a fag or you will have me to answer too, despite the fact i really really really want to win the bet lol

    hang in there sis x

    LOL...........it was only the thought of not letting you win that kept me on the straight and narrow...

    Not a chance Bro..:)

    thx...x

  • I had a more difficult holiday this year than I did last year and that really knocked me for a while. Looking at it, I went away this year with my husband who had started smoking again. He and I conducted the whole of our courtship (what a lovely word!) around fags and he falling off the wagon and puffing away on holiday was a massive trigger. I got through it though, and a couple of weekends ago we went away to a wedding and I had no issues with wanting a smoke. Each time you face these things and walk away with your head held high, no matter how difficult it was to face, it becomes just a little easier to deal with next time. Well done for not caving xx

  • FWIW I know people have let their guard down after a couple of years and started again. To quote Thomas Jefferson; The price of freedom is eternal vigilance.

    It seems quite common for people to have a tricky point in about the 11th month, possibly because you've become accustomed to not needing to deal with anything more than a passing fancy for a while.

    During the years and years of smoking it becomes part of the way we live our life so the fact that a desire to smoke crops up occasionally shouldn't be a big surprise. The important thing is how we deal with it and the more importance you place on it and worry about it the bigger hold it gets.

    My wife quit over 10 years ago and every so often she gets a desire to smoke, but then again I also get an occasional want for a sherbet fountain the difference being that I usually give into those :D

  • Hello you

    I have known ex smokers who have not smoked for years, who suddenly have this urge of having a cigarette and I so believe we will have this for a long time. I was out with an ex smoker on Sunday and she said it took her 2 years to be totally free.

    I am sat in my office at work having an ok day (no stress, easy day), frankly I do not want a cigarette and if offered I would say no. However if someone told me the world was about to end I would gladly light up 20 in one go!!

    You and I have always said we have to police ourselves and after 11 months my dear girl we have done very well. Both of us had an easy quit at the start but hit a very large brick wall at 6 months, however we got over that, murdered a few people who got in our way and we are still blip less at 11 months.:)

    You have a lot of stress at the moment and I think the craving is a survival technique you have for coping with pressure. It will pass my love I promise. xx:)

  • Hello you

    I have known ex smokers who have not smoked for years, who suddenly have this urge of having a cigarette and I so believe we will have this for a long time. I was out with an ex smoker on Sunday and she said it took her 2 years to be totally free.

    I am sat in my office at work having an ok day (no stress, easy day), frankly I do not want a cigarette and if offered I would say no. However if someone told me the world was about to end I would gladly light up 20 in one go!!

    You and I have always said we have to police ourselves and after 11 months my dear girl we have done very well. Both of us had an easy quit at the start but hit a very large brick wall at 6 months, however we got over that, murdered a few people who got in our way and we are still blip less at 11 months.:)

    You have a lot of stress at the moment and I think the craving is a survival technique you have for coping with pressure. It will pass my love I promise. xx:)

    and if it doesn't I will hold you personally responsible and come looking for the bullet again.....;)

    Thanks to everyone for their comments....it really does take you by surprise BUT it is slowely subsiding and normal service is resumed. I will not smoke again and I can say that with some amount of certainty BUT it will be a choice I will ahve to make

    xx

  • You will not smoke again, I am sure of that. I have never met anyone so positive, supportive and so self assured as you my love.

    Besides, your teeth will fall out:D

  • Scary but true..........

    Thats both the teeth and me being positive....lol

  • How ya feeling now Lorna? Much stonger lady than me! Hope you is feeling better...

    P.S. Shhhhhh Christine wears dentures LOL (only joking luvs ya really!! you know that)

  • How ya feeling now Lorna? Much stonger lady than me! Hope you is feeling better...

    P.S. Shhhhhh Christine wears dentures LOL (only joking luvs ya really!! you know that)

    I'm back on track Tinks....I'm not strong at all, never ha any willpower. Trust me if I can do this anyone can....just take one day at a time, one crave at a time and I promise you will build a strong strong quit. This has been so hard at times there is no way I could go back to the start now no way at all.

    Christines secret is safe with you and me...;)

    xx

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