I am so embarssed to say I got drunk and smoked again on Monday night :mad::mad:
I am going to have to stop drinking when I am out, there is no other option for me - I have no self control at all! I feel horrible today, hungover and feel like I ate a cigarette and drank ash water
Without wine and cigarettes I don't even know who I will be on a evening out...its so sad... it has occurred to me that I really relied on both of these to get through the stress of so******ing as an awkward teen and apparently have never grown up!!
This should be my day 21 but I have smoked on 4 of these days now!! I really feel like I have a handle over this while I am sober thanks to the great advice on this website...but while drunk my brain packs its bags and leaves me alone with my lack of common sense.