What a bonkers weekend, 90 days, 13 weeks and 3 months

It has been a weekend when various landmarks followed one after the other.

Saturday was 90 days, never thought I'd get there!

Today, Sunday is 13 weeks - 13 ruddy weeks; who'da thunk it - given my previous abortive attempts certainly not me.

Tomorrow is my 3 months - 3 months - unbelievable!!!

Have been for a run, now self medicating on a very poor glass of rose (in fridge don't ask (hangs head) hate the stuff but it can't be used in cooking as far as I'm aware so needed to be quaffed) and a chewing gum - why you ask cause even this far in I've still *fancy* a fag/cigg/tab!!!! No longer addicted but that deep breath of inhalation and *mental* relaxation is still with me.

What does this all tell me? I still need to be vigilant. I am an addict, if I think even for one second I can take another puff I might as well smoke a thousand in that drag! This has been a real pig of a journey, emotions all over the place, one day positive; next trawling the seabed. Have started on St Johns wort, don't think I've taken any today which I'm glad of, don't really want to mask what I'm going through however it had got to the stage where I was so morose I was depressing everyone. Despite feeling this way, I don't want to start again, this will pass and things will get better. There's no point wishing to be at the journey's end as I'll only get there when the train arrives, regardless if the station arrives at the train or the train arrives at the station.

Good luck to everyone and you can come too. My thanks to Kevin at Woofmang.

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  • hi mah, aww sounds a madness weekend, but youre still not smoking & youre doing it. Hey maybe look at it as getting the moods & that out the way for the rest of the journey. Personally though I dont think a journey end will ever arrive without sounding doom & gloomy i just think the journey gets more comfortable has time goes on? make sense? bring it on:D

    anyway a great place to be almost 3 months, brilliant

  • 3 .. is a magic number.. yes it is!!

    Well done on so many milestones within a short space.. so congrats to all of them :)

    Keep your guard up tho, always be prepared for the unexpected.

  • Thats awesome Mah:D .....a big congratulations to you on a job well done...Cheers Kez.

  • Hi MAH :D

    Congratulations on all those milestones almost at the same time

    All the things you still feel at times are normal but it really does just keep on getting better all the time

    Love

    Marg

  • CONGRATULATION, MAH!!!!!!!! 3 months is fantastic!! It will get better. For some of us it just takes a little longer than others, but we will all get to the place where cigs are not even a passing thought! Just keep going strong!

  • Thanks everyone for all your support, this forum is a life saver. Off into month 4, will be back to see how everyone is doing though.

  • hey MAH - congratulations. that's a massive milestone.

    sorry to hear your still battling away. seems to be easer for some than others.

    i think im in your camp and seem to be having to fight the good fight most days as well.

    Youve just reminded me that I have some st. johns wort in the cupboard and think i might join you in that. what ever it takes is my motto at the moment.

    you will get that train to the station, i believe in you - you can do it. :D

  • hey MAH - congratulations. that's a massive milestone.

    sorry to hear your still battling away. seems to be easer for some than others.

    i think im in your camp and seem to be having to fight the good fight most days as well.

    Youve just reminded me that I have some st. johns wort in the cupboard and think i might join you in that. what ever it takes is my motto at the moment.

    you will get that train to the station, i believe in you - you can do it. :D

    Thanks bman, am still battling away but I'm getting there, nothing easy is ever really worth having.

    Hi MAH:)

    Sorry im a bit late with the CONGRATULATIONS

    3 months - unbelievable!!! No MAH -FACT, BELIEVE IT:D you put the work in and i hope you are very, very proud of yourself and your so near the magic of the ton too

    I think we have a bit longer to wait until we can be 100% confident with our new lifestyle but i dont think either of us would be stupid enough to take a risk after all this work.

    So lets party on the good days put up with the bad and look forward to the future

    WHOOPEY :D WELL DONE YOU

    Chrissie x

    Cheers Chrissie, not long to the 100 now.

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