I cannot see a future with me smoking the way i do right now - any attempt at cutting down eventually fails miserably. My breathing is suffering and as a result my fitness in general suffers. I can't see how much longer i can carry on like this. I have lots of things i want to do in life and at some point i know i have to stop.
I keep telling myself, it will be easier if i leave it six months. And that six months never really comes around as it seems to be true that there is never a good time to give up. Yes i would rather quit the beginning of next year - or maybe in Spring. Oh but then i want a cigarette in the sunshine in Summer - and then it's the next year, and then the next. Oh and that event in a few months time, it would be nice to smoke then too. Oh and when i travel it would be nice then. The good time to quit just never comes and for me it just does not seem a habit i can keep going which is why i want to quit. I'm a nicotine addict.