I'm on day 9 of Champix, not stopped the ciggies completely, cut down though.
Hoping i'll stop between days 10 and 12.
Have had a horrid week though. Have been feeling like my heads been in a fog all week, extreamly tired, wanted to cry at everything.
Yesterday was the worst, felt incredibly sick all day, after taking my second tablet when I got home from work I was sick.
I had been taking the tablet then eating straight after or not eating at all on the lower dose, they didn't bother me. So didn't think the higher dose would either, how wrong was I?
I was supposed to be going to a colleagues 50th birthday party last night, 70's and 80's fancy dress, was going as a punk, got all my outfit together and was really looking forward to it. Couldn't go, was too ill and in bed from 930pm and slept till 730am this morning. I'm gutted I let her down.
Have eaten before the tablet this morning, so far not been sick but I think my stomach is still quite delicate from yesterday and I still feel sick.
Also feel like I have hair stuck in the back of my throat, all the time.
I'm really struggling with myself at the moment, I want to pack up, I really do, but at the same time i'm still smoking. I'm still feeling like a smoking leper, I guess I'm feeling like a drug addict, so drawn in by the drugs, trying to keep away, knowing how disappointed I and others would be if I stopped the Champix, but still the drug keeps willing me to it, it's hell!
I want to be at the stage I can say, this is it, I'm no longer going to smoke but right now I can't see me getting there. Perhaps I wasn't as mentally prepared as I thought I was, I don't know.