I am an idiot; I wanted to make that clear right from the outset. I started again. After a fifty day quit I gave into temptation while on holiday and started again. I ignored all the advice I was given, I ignored all the benefits of being a non smoker and started again. On the first day of our holidays I gave into temptation and started smoking again.
So tomorrow is day one, again. I am right back to square one. I can offer no excuses; I simply gave onto the cravings and gave into the temptation that got stronger and stronger over on holiday. The cheap booze, sun and holiday feeling all combined and I gave way and allowed the cigarette back in. I knew I was wrong, I know I was being stupid but I did it never the less. So tomorrow is day one again, what a bloody idiot.