Oooooh this third week is driving me insane. Got quite a bit of stress going on what with festivals and a new website I'm developing going to hell. It's also really really hot outside and I've put on some weight cos I keep eating and I've got that 'missing something' feeling and then I remember what it is I'm missing and arghhhh. Anyhoo I have decided to do this logically and go through my own crave points just cos I can and I can maybe get it sorted out in my head.
Festivals
I was out at a gig on Saturday and it was an outdoor one and there were about a million smokers. It wasn't that I was craving a fag it was just that there was smoke coming at me from all directions and it's making me feel sick. My chest hurt afterwards. Dunno if it's all in my mind or whether I'm really sensitive to smoke just now, either way I used to hate folk who did the 'cough cough, oooh that's disgusting' cos they're a bunch of drama queens and I DO NOT WANT TO BE ONE, gah.
Stress
Stress has always been around and is actually emphasized by the stress caused from withdrawl from nicotine. I'm still on the patches so until I come off of them there will still be withdrawl from nicotine going on. I'm on half a patch now so I'll get there.. just not yet. Cigarettes do not help stress they cause it and I should remember that I was a stress monster before I quit also :S
It's hot hot hot
And a cigarette will suddenly cause the temperature and humidity to drop? Pfft, stupid.
Weight
I was podgy before I quit.. I'll be even podgier now I have quit. Cigarettes never ever helped me keep the weight down in fact I ate about the same amount then as I do now. Once I've really kicked this addiction then I will concentrate on getting my weight down and getting exercise. Hospital next month to see a diet-guru-type so that may help. In the meantime at least I don't stink and I'm not out of breath anymore so although I have a belly to lose it could be a lot worse!
There.. I kicked my own butt stupid addiction :cool:
*I quit smoking on Wednesday 10th of June 2009 at 04:00 PM and have been free for 19 days, 1 hours and 48 minutes. I have not smoked 381 cancer-sticks and have saved 72.39 euro as well as gaining 70 hours of life. *