mixed feelings

I think I'm somewhere around the 14 week mark and I have to confess that I'm finding it difficult again. I have no desire to go back to smoking, I hate the smell, and the cost, and the feeling of being a failure, etc - but I can't deny that I'm tempted. I know that there's no such thing as just one and I don't think I will be giving in - it's just really getting to me that I keep thinking about it. I'm trying to focus on the positive aspects of not smoking anymore and I know that there are many, I love not being a smoker anymore. So why can't I get rid of that little voice telling me that I'm missing out? And why can't I stop thinking about how much I'd enjoy just one last smoke? :confused:

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  • that is the nature of the nico demon, breaking away is easy enough but staying away is hard work.

    I'm not quite as far on as you but i'm sure if you think about it it must be getting easier with every passing day.

    I probably crave/need/want/desire a cigarette once or twice a day for a couple of minutes a time.

    Keep your chin up and stay strong its definately worth it

    :)

  • have had a pootle around and read some of the posts and just wanted to say thanks again to everyone here. This place was a godsend to me in the first few weeks. I haven't been around much lately but having this to come back to when things have been a bit difficult has really helped to put things in perspective.

    It really does get easier. Even now when I've had a nightmare week out of the blue of thinking about smoking loads I can now see that it's not like when I first quit. And having read again the experiences of others I know that even these feelings (suppose they're sort of psuedo-cravings) will pass in time. There are large amounts of time going by when I don't think about smoking at all, and those gaps are going to carry on getting bigger and bigger. And ok, there are still rough days, maybe there always will be, but the odd minute of thinking about smoking is better than a) the initial quitting period, and b) smoking!

    Guess I'm just really impatient!

  • me again - I can't stop posting today, must be making up for lost time!

    I think something I'd been missing lately was the kind of 'celebration' feeling you get in those first few weeks. Now the novelty's worn off it's easy to slip into just feeling sorry for myself. The fact it hasn't got light for about a month doesn't help with that either, nor does all the christmas stress. So, apologies in advance for the shameless self-trumpet blowing but:

    I've done something fantastic, and it was really hard, and I'm feeling very proud of myself, and I should be rewarded with tea, biscuits and hugs.

    lol - I never say nice things about myself, this place is great!

  • Hi hbav, yes, tea, biscuits and whatever makes you smile - and plenty of it! Well done for getting so far. I'm sorry it's tough, I know what you're talking about because I think I feel more or less the same way.. But, we also know that 'just one puff' will inevitably lead to another and another.. don't we?! So we have to resist and remind ourselves that the craving lasts a few minutes and then it passes!

    Hope you feel better soon. Keep strong.:)

  • I think I'm somewhere around the 14 week mark and I have to confess that I'm finding it difficult again. I have no desire to go back to smoking, I hate the smell, and the cost, and the feeling of being a failure, etc - but I can't deny that I'm tempted. I know that there's no such thing as just one and I don't think I will be giving in - it's just really getting to me that I keep thinking about it. I'm trying to focus on the positive aspects of not smoking anymore and I know that there are many, I love not being a smoker anymore. So why can't I get rid of that little voice telling me that I'm missing out? And why can't I stop thinking about how much I'd enjoy just one last smoke? :confused:

    It could be me writing this hbav.... 14 weeks and 4 days without one but the demons say... just have 1. I really don't think I will but its still bloody hard. I thought it would have started to get easier by now. Its not fair...:(

  • Its funny I think a lot of people have suffered around that three month mark, I know others have mentioned it on here before.

    Maybe its just one of those things sent to test us lol

    Like you say you dont think you will give in but its hard nontheless!

  • morning all,

    thanks for the replies. it's so reassuring to know that i'm not the only one having a 14 week struggle. guess it's just another one of those milestones to get past. i suppose i thought i wouldn't even think about it by this point - although i don't know why as i've stopped for about 8 months before and then started again so i know that it takes a long time and a lot of effort.

    a few weeks ago it seemed a lot easier than it does now for some reason. hopefully in a few weeks time this will have passed again.

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