Well made it to day 14 but really have had enough of the crunchies and just my whole situation. So fed up with hub cos when I smoked he complained constantly about the smell even though I went to bottom of garden and sprayed on Charlie Red afterwards. But since I have given up he has not once asked if I am ok - or if I was coping. No instead he is so controlling he has told me I shouldn't come on for forum. Not that he talks to me at all - I am just a functioning robot in my house. And it's alright for him to indulge in loads of expensive stuff for himself and his obsessions but he's blaming me for everything even for things when I am not even there!!! Anyway I told him to bog off and that I will come on here when I want so there with brass nobs on.
Sorry guys my rant is done. I am trying to make some changes to my life which is very hard as no support at all. But feeling the crunchies. Bought some new tunes to try and chill out to as music seems to be the thing for me that helps me get through. I thought it would get better not worse but it is getting worse. Slept a little better last night 3 hours but still not eating. Clothes beginning to fall off now!!!
But I do want a smoke so bad - but gonna be strong. When we went to Tescos I had to pass 2 shops, Tescos and a garage which all sell smokes and I kept thinking just go in and get some, just a couple of puffs but I thought no can,t do it. Even when Matthew had another monty in Tescos screamed 'Mummy you are a stupid idiot and I hate you' because I wouldn't let him put a bag over his head ......oh I wonder why?? and then he pulled a load of hair out. Sorry bad morning - listen to a bit of Hard Fi and feel better.
Sorry to rant but I figured better than buying smokes.
Loves you all