I have just come in from a wedding do and I want to say it to everyone coz I dont want to hide it but I have smoked.
I have no excuse, I took my gum, but I started feeling tipsy and had some gum and hubby said can I have a smoke with steve? and I said pls dont ask me that coz I really want one.
so he went out to the garden and I followed him and everyone said pls charlene and lee you two dont smoke anymore, but I just didnt care and brought three for a pound off a stranger and I smoked three througout the night.
I dont feel guilty but I do feel as though I have let myself down, I knew I was not ready to have a really good drinking session but I did anyway and I knew I would prob smoke and I did, coz all my friends were smoking, (no excuse I know) I have let myself down and I feel like crap about it.
Im still a bit drunk so I hope spellings ok, sorry if it isnt, bur I feel so rotten about this that I have to get it down before I go to bed.
I can smell it on myself now and I feel like shit.
Sorry for letting the side and myself down. honestly I could just cry....
Sorry if this sounds like a drunken rambling.