I was 5 years in remission after several chemo regimens, beginning back in 2008. Two years ago I began taking idelalisib as part of a trial. My life returned to normal until about two months ago when my WBC and lymphocyte counts began to climb. Now I've reached a crossroads again. I'll be stopping the idelalisib and looking for another treatment while I try to maintain my remission with sleep, exercise, diet and lots of sunshine. On the good side, all those ugly side effects that threatened from taking the drug will no longer be hanging over me. Loose bowels were an issue so there's comfort in knowing that problem might end. I'll be on "wait and see" which is always stressful. More chemo is not in the cards so I soon may be facing my own mortality.