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Sad deja vu for me 😒

Last year in Dec. I called in hospice for my father for his last few days. He had a horrible death, suffered until the last 12 hours when I initiated his morphine.

Yesterday, I started my mom on hospice and 24 hour nursing care. I’m flying to NC tomorrow.

I’m not sure I can deal with this again. I’m so sad 😒

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I’m so sorry this is happening. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Please take care of yourself. Will someone be with you as you fly to NC?

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I’m praying πŸ™πŸ½ for you and your mother. I know this is a rough time for you.and your family. You have an extended family here with this group that’ll help lift and support you. Be safe and strong my friend.

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Sorry that you are having to go through that again. We're here for you.

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You can, you will because of who you are.

erash I am so sorry that you have to do that again. My heart and thoughts are with you. ❀️

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I'm so sorry. I know you just had to deal with the loss of having her nearby and moving her NC. I'm glad that your brothers week be there to support you and your Mom. Enjoy the time that you have left with her.

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Oh no 😫 Please rest when you can. It’s hard to relive, and I am so sorry for you. I hope she has a much different experience than he did. Lots of love to you πŸ’

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What a weight you've carried. I'm sorry for what you are going through yet again. I pray that your mom will be able to ease out of this life more easily.

I do hope you will have family to help you. We are here when you want to vent.

You're in my constant prayers.

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Oh no erash I'm so sorry! Many prayers for you and your family!

Be strong, cause you are! Im here if you need me!! Call if you need to! πŸ€—πŸ’• Love you!

J🌠

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You will manage this by yourself? Please take care of yourself during this time, and remember that I will be keeping you in my prayers.

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Oh i am so sorry. There r no words to say how much my heart hurts for you. πŸ™πŸ»πŸ™πŸ»πŸ™πŸ»πŸ™πŸ» prayers for u and ur mom and ur family.

Know u have love here and we will always be here for u πŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œ

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πŸ€— πŸ€— πŸ€— πŸ™ I don’t know what else to say, the thought of loosing your mum is difficult enjoy your time with her, tell her you love her, hold her hand, reassure her that she is not alone, and yes, it is ok to cry, we are all behind you, blessings Jimeka πŸ€—

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I'm holding you in my heart with love and strength for you. Sending you the prayers and blessings.

Jennie

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I am so sorry erash I really am. No words can describe how u feel at present. I lost my mum in 2007 and my dad in 2009. Not a day goes by when I don't think about them and get reminded of them both. Sending u prayers and care from Blighty xxxxx ❀

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I’m so sorry that you must live through this twice. You are a strong wonderful girl to see your parents through their passings.

Take care of yourself, you will need your good health to be strong for your Mom. Blessings, you have your family here that will be here for you. πŸ™πŸ’•Lynn

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Oh, Erash, it is so hard to lose one parent yet alone both so close together. Do you have any siblings to lean on? Don't forget to take care of yourself, too or you won't be any good for either of you.

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Thank you all. Your support and kindness means so much to me ❀️

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I'm so very sorry you have to through this again erash My thoughts are with you at this time. I hope that someone will be with you during this time.

Jessie

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so sorry for your needing to deal with this again. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers so your mother will have a different experience. It is hard to lose your parents.

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erash I am so heartbroken for you. I will be pouring out prayers for you and your family. You are so strong, I always admire that about you. Gather that strength and rely on us for additional strength. With much love, Kelly xx

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I will pray for you

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you will deal with this. one foot in front of the other. for now just love her. plenty of time for grieving later. my prayers for some added strength for you in the coming days

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I'm sorry this is happening to you. I will send prayers to you and your moms and your families way. ❀🌷

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I am so sorry and sad that is happening to you. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts. My parents passed within a year of each other but I didn’t have MS at the time. So please take care of yourself as best you can.

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Some lovely messages above which i would like to echo from here. Tears are very healing, don't be afraid of letting them flow and showing your feelings. Very best wishes to you and your family. X

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erash I’m sorry you are having to go through this so soon after moving your Mom to NC and less than a year after supporting your Dad through hospice. You are in my thoughts.

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erash You are in my thoughts at this very difficult time. I pray your mother is comforted by the gift of your presence, the touch of your hand.

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So sorry. Just after "retiring", I drove back out west where I used to live to see my best friend still living there, in home hospice. I was given the duty as the morphine administrator. He was dying from bladder cancer. This ex-military / trucker after retiring, toughest guy I knew, would wake up screaming in pain. Horrible way to go. Asked me repeatedly to shoot him. All I could do is tell him, sorry, can't do that, and gave him more morphine, which he would pass out from almost immediately. Yes it was hard. Very hard. He died within about week. BUT, he was so glad I was there. I had left almost 5 years earlier, but kept in daily contact. His being so glad I was there made it worth it. He's resting in peace, after an impressive military funeral.

It's hard. And it doesn't get easier. My wife's mother died this year from advanced Parkinson's. My mother and father also died this year from murder suicide (mom severely depressed / dad confined to a hospital bed at home from advanced diabetes, only looking at surgery after surgery to keep him alive.

It's hard. BUT, it's your duty to remember the good, and go on! I look at these things as a wake up call, to LIVE. Do what you've been putting off. Enjoy life. All work, no play was my life. Now I will strive to do what I can still do. Life's too short not to.

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So heartbreaking! Where did you get your strength and resilience and do they still have some in stock? I am as strong as a blade of grass and as resilient as concrete. 😬

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I am so sorry you are going through this again. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers πŸ™πŸ™

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I am so very sorry. Keeping your mom, you and your family are in my prayers. β€οΈπŸ™

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May God be with you erash to console, comfort and give you strength during this difficult time is my prayer for you. May He also be with your Mom and keep her in His loving arms during this entire process. Please take care of yourself!

Sincerely,

Sonya

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erash, I am so sorry to hear this. Your Mom is very lucky to have you. I am sure you will do what's best for her. My Dad died at 39 of pancreatic cancer. I wish I had been with him on his last days.

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My heart breaks for you. I truly wish there was something I could say to help. The only thing I can think of is. We are all here to listen. Some of us have been there. Remember we all love you and are here. Vent away!

Rob

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Prayers are with you!

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I am so sorry for all you are going through. Losing anyone is hard, you are having more than your share right now. Find peace in this if you can.

Craig

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So sorry to hear about your Mom erash . Losing parents is never easy. I lost mine nearly 20 years ago and I still miss them dearly.

My prayers are with you and your Mom.

God bless

Donnie

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I am so sorry for the pain. I have watched my mom suffer in a hellhole nursing home for 4 years. I am ashamed to say it but I wish she could be freed from this life. It is not living. I pray that your mom doesn’t suffer and that you will be strong in this sad time.

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Erash,

I am so sorry this is happening. Please try to take care of yourself.

Leslie

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So sorry for your loss of your father and the the journey your mom is on. I don't know that we can see why things happen as they do. Hopefully when we join our family in heaven, we will see the beautiful outcome we have been promised by our Savior

Peace and courage and prayers

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So very, very sorry...

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erash my prayers will be with you during this terrible time.

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Thank you again everyone. Mom has rallied a little with some steroids to help her breathing. Last nite our family got together at her facility for an early Thanksgiving and there was much to be grateful for πŸ™πŸ’•

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Hope all still going well with you all. :-)

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Your mom is blessed that you can be with her. Praying for peace and comfort for you and your mom.

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So sorry you are going through this. πŸ˜₯

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I am praying for you & sending hugs

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