Another doctor!

[agapepilgrim]

So done with know it all doctors who font listen to my real symptoms and lack of compassion or empathy from husband, my only friend. God whispered, be thankful he can drive you the 40 miles!

[agapepilgrim]

P s. Just took a nerve conductor test I guess to see if my pain is real enough to qualify for greater pain meds. Just give me Xanax!!

[Jesmcd2 CommunityAmbassador in reply to agapepilgrim]

Shhh passing agapepilgrim a Xanax 😉 I hate those things!😩😡😢

J 🌠

[agapepilgrim in reply to Jesmcd2]

Jesmcd2 i would gladly pay my co-pay of $3.30 (carotrosphic zone) but neurologist decided he new best and switched me from Xanax (from primary doc) tonValium which is like taking sugar pils(actually sugar pills would be better--give me lift, or chocolates) but NO, the little god knows best about something he has never experienced!!! I wonder if I told him how to have a baby he would respond with "you read too much!" My primary not happy cause he knew my ongoing anxiety issues fromPtSd and poisonous past. I have lett msgs with him or nurse for 4 weeks. Cracks me up when biogene nurse or specialists pharmacy tell me to call neurologist with worsening symptoms! To get help, ur would be ER!!! But why waste money---I KnHW what the cause is! The new neurologist did nerve test today for nerve connection to pain spasms. I am NOT having spasms in my arms#%€¥¥¥££%}{!!!! Why did she stick needles in my arm - for torture??? In not having pain in the upper fleshly parts of my arms--why did she stick needles in there??? I came up off bed with the pain!! Yep,nerves working find there!!!do my back where the spasms are you %^^*##}!!!!!thats where nerve and muscle spasms are!!!!did I mention I have NO respect for doctors, espnneurologists? Just give me Xanax and Percocet and I will take as needed and my husband will be happy! (Big emotional battle after doc visit). I've been dealing with this for 30 years and I'm not addicted yet!!! I'm not ignorant! I've seen withdrawals! 2 Xanax daily is NOT 6 round the clock!!! I am going back to clinic from 10 years ago I don't care if neurologist likes it or not!! He says, no, Botox better! Botox doctor saiid I didn't qualify for Botox!! Different pain!! Am I angry! And tomorrow I go for upper scope to check out constant nauseatotal waste of time and money!! It's stomach spasms like dx in second grade and give me relaxant!! But no, patient needs to be committed! Grrr!! Then I read Apistle was in the open ocean for a day and a half. I can handle this thru Christ who strengthens me (wear the bracelet as constant teminder(ESP when frank says I gotta stop the crying and handle like an adult). I need lots of grace and mercy, guys.

[Doubled51 in reply to agapepilgrim]

@agapepilgrim. Praying for Jesus to touch your back and body with his healing hands. He is the great physician and can do what no human hands can. Heal our sister. By your stripes we were healed and I claim this healing in the name above all names. Jesus Christ. Amen. Be better my friend. I feel your pain about no support from your spouse. It sure doesn't help when you battle pain and your only companion doesn't seem to care.

Donnie

[Doubled51 in reply to Doubled51]

@agapepilgrim. I also take temazepam 30 mg and doxepin 10 mg at bedtime for sleep but still don't get much sleep at all.I'm keeping a sleep journal for my ms neuro so maybe he can help.

Donnie

[greaterexp in reply to agapepilgrim]

agapepilgrim , it seems like a very common frustration for so many of us in feeling as though we aren't being heard. I'll keep praying someone can truly hear you and respond in a helpful way.

[Doubled51 in reply to Jesmcd2]

@jesmcs2. I'm with you Jes. I've been down the Xanax road and don't want to travel that road again.

Donnie

[agapepilgrim in reply to Doubled51]

Doubled51 how much were you taking daily for it to he bad for you?? I have never taken over two a day. I was on just one to help me relax at bedtime .5 mg. Sometimes I couldn't control the MS anxiety and I would take it during day and then take 20 mg melantonin at bed time. I was surviving and able to not respond or react to my husband's impatient anger. He was a coal mine manager over 300 men for 30 yrs and he forgets I'm not one of his union boys.

[Doubled51 in reply to agapepilgrim]

@agape pilgrim. I started on 3 1 mg daily then it went to 4 then 5. I was under a psychiatrist that just upped the meds when I was still having anxiety attacks without trying to treat the problem this went on for years before I went to rehab to get off this stuff 7 days to get over the withdrawals. It was 7 days of hell. When they get a hold of you they are hard o get rid off. Your body gets dependent on they very easily and they taught us in rehab they are one of the hardest addictions to break. And I have to agree. Take tgfe responsibly my friend they an take control of your life. By bleesed my friend.

Donnie

[Doubled51 in reply to Doubled51]

agapepilgrim

[4fishylady]

Agapepilgrim So sorry to hear of all your issues. I am not too afraid of Xanax to take it when needed. It doesn't help me sleep. I take temazepam for the 4-6 hours that I get each night. I went through a deep depression a few months back and while trying to get on Lexapro, had to add some Xanax to the mix. I only took 1/2 of a .5 mg pill 3 times a day for a couple of weeks, then cut that to 1/4, and that was enough to get me through that time. (My Neuro had prescribed .5 three times daily.) More recently, I have been having trouble with brain function, so I have cut my Lexapro in half. So far so good with that. I am doing a sewing project for my son, in making carrying bags for drums that he makes, that are pretty heavy. Normally, I have good mechanical ability, and can figure things out, but the brain is not working too well right now. I work a little while, and rest a little while, thinking how to work out the current problem. Doing a little better now that I have cut the Lexapro in half. Sorry, that your husband is not supportive. That really sucks! I am blessed in that respect. You will be in my prayers!

[ddeadred]

Just give me Tramadol any day... works like a charm for me and like my Sistour, I only use pain meds when I'm desperate(like I am today after latest fall...). If I could just take the edge off... I'm always good to go go go! Used to have marijuana available to me and one little hit and was good to go all day... so simple...

[ddeadred in reply to ddeadred]

And empathy??? I am newly near family after 30 years in a different state... No empathy there as they've not been along for the ride... found a GREAT church though so I'm getting it from them...

[agapepilgrim in reply to ddeadred]

ddeadred

[agapepilgrim]

@ddeadred thank God for the church He led you to; there is nothing like a caring, compassionate, loving, and passionate for Christ church!

[agapepilgrim]

@ddeadred maybe I should ask about Tramadol. I have never taken it I don't think, or forgot, or had allergic reactions! I am going to a Pain Clinic if the neurologist botox doc doesn't find a way to ease my pain. It's gotta be better than Norco 7.5!