Anguish

[Karen-x]

I keep dreaming frustrating, anguishing dreams about when I worked, especially when I worked as an analyst for the legislature. I wake up anxious and sad at the same time. I thought I was emotionally stable with this new life.....

[dmaskal1]

I've been on disability since 2000 and I still have dreams about experiments running in the lab, production running in the pilot plant, and working with engineers to build a new facility. However, that's when I'm not concerned about my responsibilities today, even though they are much less complex. I help my wife host a large group at a cocktail and appetizers reception to meet guest artists at the symphony about six times a year. I'm also the secretary for our local chapter of my university alumni society which meets monthly. I look forward to going to symphony concerts with my wife. We both like to go to the movies and out to dinner with our next door neighbors. I like communicating with folks in each group we are in, with our neighbors, and with our brothers and sisters and their children using FaceBook. There's a lot I do to get those dreams about when I was working out of my head.

Try it!

[erash in reply to dmaskal1]

dmaskal1 sounds like u have a very full and joyful life! 😊

[dmaskal1]

Karen-X, I forgot you can also ask your neurologist to prescribe medication that will help take the edge off of your anxiety. Bets wishes, Dave

[CalfeeChick CommunityAmbassador]

I'm not sure, but I would venture to say your subconscious has not fully accepted your DX. I have no idea how long it will take, it's definitely an individual process.

I went numb last summer, got DX in Dec. I have hard time accepting DX. I'm more of if it's broke, fix it or replace it and get on with your life. Hence, I've already had 2 back surgeries, lower back fused. 4 minor knee surgeries before a knee replacement. After all, I rehabbed and got on with life. This waiting for results, new symptoms and therapies and treatments is very frustrating. Thank goodness for this site, like dmaskal1, I have been on disability since 2000.

Talk to your doc/neuro about your options to relieve your anxiety, perhaps you can re-direct your energies in another direction. Do something for you or others. I knit or crochet for charities and grandkids.

[Midgey_Midge06]

I still dream about work. Every single night. The dreams become much less frustrating over time. I am hoping they stop all together soon.

Good luck and hopefully sweet dreams 😘💜

[erash]

Karen-x i think maybe we work thru issues in our dreams. I've had a number of work related anxiety dreams too since I had to stop work. I note them and then move on. If yours are interfering with your quality of day time life perhaps you should speak with someone?

Last nite I dreamt @ our dog. (Passed away 2 yrs ago) In the dream I had forgotten to feed him and then was going thru the house trying to find him to no avail. I interpret this to mean either I am not responsible enuf to get that new pet I'm yearning for, or I need to find a pet, or its because the adorable service dogs were visiting at the senior day care I volunteered at yesterday.

Does anyone ever have or remember joyful dreams? Mine always have a component of anxiety in them.

[StacyHayward]

I have psycho dreams all the time!!

[Jesmcd2 CommunityAmbassador]

Hi Karen-x l hate dreaming lol l only remember the bad ones. Figures. But l have always been told that when you dream, it's your mind figuring things out and adjusting to things that you conscious mind isn't able to yet. And that takes time.

When were you dx'ed Karen? I don't remember, lm sorry. And waking up sad and with anxiety isn't a good thing. Sounds like you had a pretty demanding job, and letting all that go is a major adjustment. Finding something to replace that, is a process just like everything else, in my book.

You also need to talk to your PCP about your anxiety and sadness. This isn't something to mess around with!

Jes🌠

ps. I'm just a message away if you ever need to talk☺

[greaterexp]

I'm sorry your sleep is not always restful or pleasant. I agree that it might be good to mention this to one if your doctors to see if medication could help.

I couldn't say for sure that MS causes this, but I began having similar anxiety issues at bedtime during my first relapse. It has pretty much resolved on its own, but still pops up now and then. Since I never experienced that particular feeling before, I tend to link it with MS.

I hope your doctor can help with that symptom quickly.

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I'm a nurse and I used to work at the hospital in critical care, which is what I would prefer to still be doing, though I'm thankful there was a desk job I was able to transition to 3.5 years ago. I still have dreams that I'm working at the hospital though, and they are distressing dreams, like I get to the end of my 12 hour shift and realize I forgot one of my patients and haven't been in their room the whole shift. Which is absurd of course, but in the dream the terror I feel in that moment of realization of how awfully I've messed up feels so real. It's kind of like in the dream I'm still where I wish I could be, yet I'm reminded I'm not able to do that any more. I am grateful though that I'm still working. It seems like our new normal is a moving target.

[ddeadred]

Had the same when I first retired for the MonSter in 2001... Funny--just had one last night... usually don't get them anymore...

[shortyPPMS]

I get the same kind of dreams often.