I know I've been here before in a previous post. But I can't help but worry. How do you stop being scared of your next migraine?
I don't tend to have that many migraines. At one point I had them almost every half a year. And after that I was lucky enough to not have a migraine for an entire year - what I believe is called full remission - I was so happy, going along thinking that I'd never have another migraine again.
Then after the year away from them, I got one at work. Not a problem, I thought, I'll just take the pills the doctors gave me. So next time I had two in the space of a week of each other. The first one was okay too, even, but the one a week later really affected me. The pills didn't work.
And now I'm scared.
Scared of seeing weird spots and things. Scared of my hand suddenly going numb. Scared of waking up in the middle of the night all alone with a head that feels like it's been impaled by a railway spike, and practically begging to throw up whole my mind goes into overdrive.
And afterwards, scared of feeling it's going to happen all over again.
And I'm fed up of feeling like just doing anything will set one off.
I don't know what to do. I've barely begun to live yet I suddenly feel like its all coming to an end.