Hello, I am in Australia and had viral meningitis in October 2012 and was in hospital for nine days and three months off work.Its been almost six months since then. I am back working part time and very moody and having difficulty coping with emotional stress. In fact, lately I would say I am definately depressed. My work colleagues are not very nice people and I find that being around them is very difficult as they are not kind or supportive. It really gets to me to be around mean people, I am very sensitive. Before I went back to work I was very sick but the further I got from being at work the happier I was. Actually although I was sick I was not depressed and was feeling really good about life despite the illness. Although I am slowly getting physically stronger, I am really misreble at work and am desperate for change but perhaps not well enough to get a new job as I dont think I could excell at it. I still have headaches and head pressure most nights but its not crippling. However, i have joint pain particulary in arms. No signs of inflammation in blood tests though. I am able to exercise, now. I can surf for an hour or so, can snorkel for two hours, can swim freestyle for a kilometer and can walk for two hours.Not all at once of course. But cant run at all. Bit scared about cycling as it can bring on headaches. So over all the evil VM is abating. But the mood swings and sense of despair is pretty strong. I was bullied at my job for over 6 months before I got sick and so never wanted to go back after I collapsed. However, I went back to work for the money and also to just get back on the horse so to speak. In a way I went back to prove to the bullies that even a deadly virus has not stopped me. However, now that I am soo misreble I think its a fake victory! I have income insurance, and what I really want to do is tell the doctors I cant cope and take the rest of the year off and use the insurance if possible and really recover. I simply dont have the energy and mojo to get it together for work. And the thought of getting a new job is abhorrent really. So, its a bit of a recipe for misery in ways. Do other people have this type of weird mood misery? My family have no idea that this is difficult and have not been supportive at all so its been a hell of a way to work out who your friends are. Wow. Has anyone else found this experience like falling through space in a really weird way only to land in a strange land with strange people? What planet did I arrive on? The one where most people are mean and weird?? What happened to the good people? Did the mean ones kill them all while I was in hospital?? Hope someone else can shed some light on their weird times. Glad to read this stuff though. Its hard not knowing anyone who has been in this. We dont have any organisations in Australia for meningitis.
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