So, I am here because I find myself unable to make that dermatology appointment for my mom. Sadly, my family has a history of Melanoma, my maternal uncle died 15 years ago from Melanoma, my second maternal uncle has melanoma but is vigilant and my younger sister died this year from Melanoma. I just found two very ugly moles on my mother's back and have told her to make her appointment. She hasn't and I find myself back when my sister was ill and wouldn't go to the doctor until I made the appointment. It has been one month and she hasn't gone and I haven't made the appointment and I now realize it is fear immobilizing me. I am not sure I can do this again but I know if I don't make the appointment and take her she won't go. Somehow writing this to you and crying again, lol, it is all I do on this site. I now live in constant fear about my mom and my kids and have not gone to do the genetic testing I keep saying I will do to make sure my kids are okay. Gosh, writing it down kind of makes it real. This was also the same time of year we found out about my sisters melanoma, isn't it funny that I didn't put all of this together until I started writing this, hmm my first aha moment. I would like to thank Joedamico for his post which made me start thinking about my mom, without it, I might still be burying my head.