I have only had CFS for around 9 months but am already at my wits end. It was bought on by Glandular Fever and although the flu symptoms have diminished (although they do return every 3 weeks when I inevitably get whatever cold is going round). I am 16 and doing full time A levels at college, 5 days per week. I am also trying desperately to get a part time job to support myself. Prior to having CFS I had so much energy, I got so much work done in a flash and was always exercising, walking, running, playing sport etc. (My passion is horse riding). I also write a lot, and was working on a novel. Since being diagnosed with CFS, The amount of time and effort used up for me to perform the simplest of tasks is insufferable to me. I have suffered with depression for three years but it was always aided by productivity, wether it be writing my novel, writing an essay, cleaning out my pets' cages, drawing, painting, etc. Now I can do physically nothing. Has anyone else's life been ruined like this? I go to sleep at 8pm and wake at 7:00 am, feeling absoloutely shattered. No amount of sleep refreshes me. My head feels as though it is going to implode, like a pressure build up that causes me to cry a lot out of sheer frustration. The writing content I could produce in an hour to a brilliant standard now takes me days and days. Words are blurred on the page and I can't focus on them. At college I fall asleep in lessons and have to take time out to walk in the fresh air in order to wake myself up. I'm also always hungry, but food (although it improves my mood) gives me no energy whatsoever. I've gained about 6 lbs which doesn't seem much, and still means that I am a slim, healthy weight but to me it is really demoralising. I get exhausted after the smallest of exertions and am so busy with tasks to do, yet can only do a maximum of two things a day. All I want to do is sleep yet sleep doesn't help. My muscles always feel as though they are scrunching up and the worst part is that no-one takes a teenager with CFS seriously. My teachers think I stay up all night on games, they couldn't be more wrong. Even whilst writing this at only 10:37 am my eyelids feel like lead and I want to cry and sleep. Is anyone else feeling this way? I just want my old life back. Has anyone tried antidepressants to assist CFS? I used to take 2.5mg of Fluoxetine daily and I would be happy to do so again if I thought it might even give me the slightest bit of energy or lift the fog in my head. Has anyone had success with any other things? x
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