Having a bad day

[leanWimp]

Today I wake up with an intense headache, it was funny, the feeling of my brain expanding towards my cranium, any kind of pain makes me feel depressive, so today I wanted to kill myself. Normally I feel empty but today I felt like a failure, like I won't achieve nothing. I want to be dead but I'm not able of doing it. This is so hard . I can't communicate with someone about this because I don't want to affect anyone I love. They don't deserve the pain of feeling bad for me.

[Hidden]

Please do not harm yourself. I have those feelings too. It is hard for us especially when we are alone and have no family or friends. I care

[leanWimp in reply to Hidden]

I know bro but my problem is that I don't do nothing. I don't improve and I'm done with being in this middle state. That sometimes I want to get worse because that would be something instead of emptiness.

[leanWimp in reply to leanWimp]

Sorry for trauma dumping

[Raelyn71 in reply to leanWimp]

Please do not feel sorry for trauma dumping... that is what this forum is for. It's to be able to talk to others in similar situations. So you have a voice and your not alone.