Well its been a year this week since I had my surgery. This time last year I could not help but feel doom and gloom. I sat down to plan my sons future, things like who would take care of him, a bank account for his future etc etc. I still worry about the future but there has been no major concerns healthwise. So for the present I am looking forward to the future and trying to enjoy each new day. I know it sounds corny but until you have been through or are going through something like this you don't appreiciate how special life is. I am really grateful to the Roy Castle Lung Cancer Foundation for being there with there site, reading other peoples stories was and still is a fantastic wealth of support for me.