I wanted to post a thank you to everyone who responded to my drama filled post. Even if you didn’t reply...it was something I needed to get out and having a group of people who are experiencing similar situations makes dealing with things like this, easier. In truth...my lung cancer diagnosis was an easier pill to swallow. You KNOW that cancer sucks so what happens during treatment isn’t s huge surprise. When you’re defrayed by the one person you trust most in this world well...there’s no preparation for that and no one size fits all solution. It’s easy for others to say “leave him”. Trust me...I’ve been considering that everyday. But actually doing it is a lot harder. I left my ex without a care in the world. I was relatively young, healthy and employed. He was a jerk and I didn’t give it a second thought. This time...I’m older (49) have lung cancer, have not worked since diagnosis...and I love him. More than I’ve ever loved anyone. That’s what gets you so messed up. Why couldn’t the other jerk have done this and that be my one time dealing with it? The guy who’s held my hand through every treatment and doctor visit and scan...who told everyone I was his “beautiful warrior”....why did THAT one have to be such a jerk? That’s life I suppose and no matter what decision I make...I’m glad to have loved and felt love like that. Maybe it’s not meant to last forever...
Thank you for always being there to give me advice...about cancer and about life. You’re good eggs 🥚 😍😍
How are all of you brave hearts doing?
Leptomeningeal - Part 1
Lung cancer? Me? No way.......
