Hi! It's my first post here.
I've had a moderate to serious case of Covid; 52 percent lung damage at the time of admission. I was discharged from hospital on 13th May. My dad, 64, had caught it from me and we both were hospitalised, first me, 6 days then him 5 more.
I've been in a long distance relationship with a wonderful guy from the US (am from India). We were planning on going ahead with it and getting married. But, things worsened pretty quickly after I last talked to him on 16th Feb (probably); he got his covid vaccine and, after a month, I was told by an indirect source (14th March) that due to serious reaction to a covid vaccine, he was hospitalised.
After talking to a few doctors on the Internet, I have concluded that it must be anaphylaxis and other 'critical' complications. The 'indirect source' that informed me about him, officially used 'still in medically induced coma til further improvement' term on 14th April.
As you can see, not a lot can be concluded from the information above. I am not sure, if he's been put under for at least 1.5 months or more or just a few days. The source has gone silent, now.
About me, I have lately become really sad and I have lost all hopes in life. I did get bizarre, vivid dreams during and after 6 days on ventilator; nightmares that don't let you fall asleep. My oxygen had fallen to 82. But, now that I am physically a lot better, my mind is in a dark place. I have had bipolar disorder before, but I never feel better anymore (as in mania).
Is post covid depression something or just that I'm going through a really bad phase in life? I have been a bit suicidal but never acted. But, I've lost all hopes now. Please, help!