Hi Bill and everyone. I noted from the Post left by Haly from Canada that she got hold of the medical records whilst in ICU. Does anyone know if that is possible to do in the UK. I know from the past that reading things about me, not necessarily medical, it has helped me along. I, like many of you am just a year out of ICU AMD the past two weeks have been horrendous. All the usual useless, suicidal, low feelings etc just all came at once. I am just starting to come out of it today but as everyone has said to me on this site a year is still early days but still hard to understand any of it. Having heard that a former Traffic Department friend is dying of cancer really devastated as those days were so precious memories for me. I even thought if I could I would swap places with him as he has so much to live for having just had his first grandchild born and will not live to see him grow up. I just feel life is just so unfair. The only help I get is my Psychologist who I see once a week but will miss two weeks due to holidays. Other than that I get no help and feel I am slipping back again. Writing my daily diary as suggested by my Psychologist does seem to help- as do reading the postings from all you wonderful survivors out there.