I was taken to hospital with tonsillitis and ended up 8 days later waking up in ICU . I felt confused and out of control . When i was moved to HDU they and my family explained that i had to be sedated and i was on a ventilator as my throat closed and i had no airway. I have been out for 8 weeks and still feel so tired and scared . I cant sleep as i have nightmares and relive it all . I had a ICU follow up meeting and they explained some of the things i think happened or believe are true are hallucinations that i had . I feel i should be better and be able to deal with all of this . I should be going back to work but cant as i have lost confidence and cant deal with lots of people and im just not ready to be in the real world . My family are great and so supportive but i feel i should be grateful and lucky for being here . Am i going mad or is this normal . thank you for reading this .